Yes I hug a lot. Yes I'm weird. Yes I'm over affectionate. I dunno why I'm like that....I'm sorry I'm like that. I'm sorry if I get in your bubble if I wanna show you I care about you. I don't know much of any other way...im awkward with conversation, so yes I will act like a fool and be crazy. I'm scatter brained most of the time...I'm sorry. I'm silly acting to clear my mind from the demons eating away at it. I'm sorry every so often I go a little over the line, I don't know where any lines are drawn because I've never had any drawn before. Please don't laugh when I say, yes I like this and this, I'm sorry if you find it kiddish or whatever. Yes, I have strong opinions, and I will argue to my grave that your opinion is wrong, and I'm sorry...I'm working on it...
I'm sorry I have breakdowns over little things..sometimes the dumbest thing is the straw that breaks the camels back. I'm sorry that I'm not the strongest person in the world but I promise to God that I will help you in every way I can.
I'm sorry that I apologize for so much all the time. Even if it is not my fault I still feel as though I should've helped, even if it doesn't concern me. I feel as though something or other could've went better, even if there was nothing that could have changed or prevented it, I feel there was and I let you get that way or whatever sort of thing happened
I'm sorry I like hugs. When I get to hug people it's nice to feel the warm embrace of someone else's beating heart and nice warm arms. And I like hugging people that look sad because sometimes when people are falling apart, maybe an embrace can kinda piece them back together. I like hugs because they make me forget everything bad for those few seconds and realize how loved I really am. That's why I like giving AND receiving hugs.
I'm sorry I act crazy. That's just in my nature. I know it's a lot, I sometimes weird myself out. I can only say that it's a coverup mostly. I even believe it a lot of the time. I like making others smile because it makes me realize not everything in the world is dark and bad. I like being able to share my silliness with everyone and I'm sorry if I get too weird....I don't like when I cross the line, and I'm sorry when it's too much. I'm learning where the lines are slowly.
Yes I listen to weird as frick music a lot of the time, and when it's weird, it's loud. I listen to it at such a volume to block out all the hate I hear in the halls, and in the classrooms. Of all the rumours, to comments, to everything. Why are people so cruel? What does it make you to call someone ugly or fat? Or make fun of a kid for crying or laughing at someone who gets angry? What does it make you? It sure as heck doesn't make you look cooler. It honestly make makes you look like someone no one would want to hang out with honestly.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm flawed, and weird, and crazy, and try to hard sometimes. I'm sorry but that's who I enjoy being, the clown that everyone laughs with and smiles at, because I don't know what anyone goes through, and it means the world to me when I see people smile. I make strangers smile on a daily basis. Because, if I like a song in a store, I'll dance to it. Or if I see one of my friends I'll go up and hug them even though I just saw them 20 mins ago at school. Like, I love all of my friends, and it's a joy to see them.
I'm sorry I miss people I should've let go of. It's better for me to let go of them, I understand. But maybe the memories make me smile...thinking about how someone could change my whole life, I dunno.
I'm sorry that I don't meet everyone's standards, in beauty or in weight or in height or in happiness. I am who I am and I make some people happy, some sad, some angry, and some just straight up leave. I'm sorry I'm a bit of work. I'm a fixer-upper, but I try my hardest. I promise I'll be the best person I can be once you're done digging to find the core. I'll help you though, even though my teamwork takes a little getting used to.
Hello my name is flawed.
I won't ever make everyone happy with myself.
No matter if I change or stay the same.
But I will never change for anybody.
If you don't like me, that's okay.
I will be curious of why you don't.
I am Alexis Dennis.
I am strong.
I am trying.
I am a little broken.
I am your best friend no matter what.
YOU ARE READING
My poems
RandomI will write my deepest, saddest thoughts here. Warning, you may cry, or scream, or tell someone you love them more then ever. But please don't be angry with me.
