Forgotten (AU) (completed but unedited)

[44] No. Of course not.

"Luke wants me to move in with him- I'll see you tomorrow. Bye!" Kiara says and I grab her arm.

"Wait a second. Are you going to?" I ask and she shrugs.

"I'll talk to you about it later." Kiara hugs me then runs to her car. "Be safe!" I shout and she nods.

"You too." She gets in her car and drives away.

I step inside the house, and suddenly I get a weird feeling. Nobody was home, Demi called and told me.

The feeling wasn't good. I felt horrible. About everything, about any life choice I had made since rehab. Eating, cutting down on exercise, expressing my feelings, everything.

I call Shawn. He'll make it better, right? When I call, we talk until he has to go. When he hangs up, I still feel the same.

I run upstairs. I had to find something to make me feel better. I decide to get on my phone and interact with fans but I still don't feel better.

I change into baggy clothes. I hadn't been in baggy clothes since before rehab. I felt a little better but only because my body and all the scars were covered.

. . .

Demi brought Laurynn and Emma. The two boys didn't want to come. "I want to see something." Laurynn says and grab my wrist.

"Ow." I instinctively say. Everyone stops. "I'm okay. She just grabbed a little tight." I lie.

"Are you guys hungry?" Demi asks and everyone nods. Demi looks at me. "I ate right before you got here." I lie with a smile.

"Take me to what you wanted to see." I say to Laurynn.

When we walk upstairs Laurynn looks up at me. "Can I ask you a secret?" Laurynn says and I nod.

I pull her into my bedroom and shit the door. "Are you doing bad again?" Laurynn whispers.

"Laurynn, Emma. I love you both and if I start doing bad again I want you to tell mom right away." I say to them slowly making absolutely sure they understood each word.

"No. Of course not." I smile.

"Okay." Laurynn smiles amd hugs me. I hug her back. My phone vibrates and I pull away.

From- Heather. To- Paitynn and Shawn.
                       You guys are going on a date. You can choose the restaurant. Be ready in two hours.

I sigh. "I have to start getting ready for a date, Laurynn. Can you go tell mom?" I ask and she nods then rushes downstairs.

I grab a long sleeve shirt and skinny jeans. The shirt said 'Blink if you want me' and the skinny jeans were white.

I walk to the bathroom and put makeup on. "Damn it." I mumble when I smear my mascara clumsily all over my hand. I reach down in the cabinet for a rag.

The ring I had on hit something glass and I look at it confused. An unopened bottle of vodka. I smile to myself and open it.

I take a big drink of it then finish my makeup with it hidden. When I get done, I run downstairs and grab a water bottle.

I walk back upstairs and pour the water out. "Paitynn." Demi shouts from outside the bathroom door. I quickly hide the vodka and open the door.

"Hi." She smiles walking in. I smile back and start to brush my teeth.

"Should I get an abortion?" Demi asks and I shake my head. I spit out the toothpaste.