Nicoles POV:
"i love you nicole but i can't do this anymore, i feel something deep inside that isn't right. i don't feel like i can trust you anymore, i'm sorry but i can't do this anymore," sammy tells me with tears in his eyes
i couldn't believe what he said, everything had been fine, this came out of nowhere. i could feel my heart tearing. i know that my life would be hell without him.
"sam why are you doing this, i can't live without you," i say crying heavily
"i'm sorry nicole, but i can't do this anymore. goodbye," sam says turning his back walking to his car.
"sam no!" i say yelling out sobbing
but it was too late, he was already gone.
i run into my room sobbing into my pillow. why is this happening? why? i loved him so much. he was my world. did i do something wrong? all these questions swirled around my head and i cracked. i was about to do something i promised myself i would never do again.
i went to my bathroom and opened one of my drawers under my sink. i ruffled around through it for awhile until i found the small piece of cold metal. i twirled it around in my fingers for a bit as i sobbed, so many thoughts going through my head and i felt as if i was going to just explode.
all i can remember is feeling the cold metal against my wrist, the tingle i felt going down my spine, the blood dripping down my wrist, not even knowing or caring how deep i was going into my wrist.
the rest was a blur, i fell to the ground, the ceiling was spinning and then everything went black.
i remember waking up in the hospital, seeing my family crying and pacing frantically, and someone who has caused this mess, someone who i had loved, but someone who left me.
it was sam. he was a mess he had his head in his hands and i could hear him quietly sobbing. it was so hard to see him like this, even after everything he has put me through. i still loved him.
"once you fall in love with someone, that love never really goes away."
i will never forget that quote. because that is how i feel with sam. no matter what he puts me through, there is always going to be a part of my that will always love him.
2 days later
"nicole i am so fucking sorry for all the shit i put you through, you didn't deserve any of it, i don't know what was going through my head that day when i told you i couldn't be with you anymore, but seeing you on that hospital bed it made me realize, that i love you, and i can't imagine my life without you. life is precious, and you have to cherish every moment of it because you never know when someone could just be gone, i know i put you through so much but i love you so much, and i want you back," sam says sincerely
"sam, even though you put me through hell and back, i couldn't imagine my life without you, so yes i will take you back, i love you so much, you're my world baby," i say hugging him
he pulls away from the hug and pulls up my sleeve running his hand over my scars on my wrist.
"why would you do this to yourself, why would you destroy your beautiful body like this?" he says pulling my wrist up to his lips and he kisses every single cut i have on my wrist.
"i couldn't handle the pain, so i thought this would take it away but it didn't it only made things worse. i promise i will never do this again, i love you too much to put you through that pain again," i say to him with a half frown
"promise, babygirl?" sam asks holding my waist
"i promise, daddy," i say back with a smirk
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this one is sOoOoO deep omg i'm sorry for doing this to ya'll
this was requested by @colefreezy
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sienna
