Secrets

chapter two

As our lips touched I closed my eyes as I started reveling in the feeling. Then suddenly my subconscious just had to remind me it was my first kiss and so I panicked because I don't know how to kiss and ended it. I just pulled away and said "um I need to get something to eat". I freed myself from his tight embrace and he said "almost forgot here". As he handed my usual party snack he said "wanna go to the football field and sit on the bleachers?". I took them from him avoiding eye contact and noded.
While walking in a deafening silence. I started thinking about the kiss and regretted ending it. Come on he is one of my most trust worthy friends maybe I should explain. We reached the bleachers in no time. As we sat and I offered my ice cream and cheese voltz and we were eating. he asked "why ending the kiss when you don't wanna?". So I answered carefully saying "hunger". "I don't believe you for a second t". "Well your gonna have to ". "Talia what if I kissed you again would you do it again?" he asked. "I don't know" I said stuffing my mouth with food. Can't he just drop the goddam subject until am ready fuck ugh.
"Tell me the damn truth, am tired of always coming close and then you push me further away from you" he growled "for fucks sake Talia". "Because I panicked you idiot" I shouted shrugging away from his outstretched arm. I then focused my eyes at the field and the grass. This was because if I told him the rest he would give me the innocent look which he clearly wasn't if you know what I mean. Then a laugh escaped my lips and he asked what's funny but I shook my head and regained focus.

" Sweetie why did you panick?" he said using his finger to turn my head around to face him. My heart was about to explode but I deciphered the bomb before it could. Tears started to stream down my face suddenly he kissed them away beneath my eyes it felt so soft. "Hey why'd ya panick?" he said drawing back my brain to the here and now.

"I um never kissed before" I said in a hushed whisper. "why is that?" he said.

"My brother grossed it out with his girlfriend in front of me and when they said saliva mixing tongue twirling, do I need to continue?" I said smirking.
"That means you're a virgin?" "Virgin... you can say that". Why haven't you had sex?" he ask sitting up straight . "I kindah am waiting for someone he doesn't know it yet but I love him so much no matter how much hurt he puts me through" I answered. The rain started falling and I got up turn on my music on my phone and grabbed the vodka and headed to the field to dance. He ran behind me shouting my name as I reached my destination I started dancing threw off my jacket and looked to the sky and took a swig of vodka "I feel so fucking free" I shouted . he took up my jacket and slipper and rested them on the closest bleachers under shelter.
He stalked his way behind me and spun me around, grabbed my hips into him a gave me a sloppy, groin disturbing and butterfly catching kiss he then trail soft kisses down my neck. He bit me leaving a red spot. "Oww what was that for?" I complained. "You are now mine you get that , that means imma be your first and last, I wanna be the one to tear through that tight cat down there".*******