"How do i say this with out being too forward?" Michael whispered to himself as i sat next to him. We were at michaels house. "Just say it. "I said smiling at him. He looked at me and smiled as well, as if I had calmed him. "I want to spend Christmas with you. I mean, I don't want to be alone on Christmas and I enjoy your company. I just thought..." He sighed and took a seat next to me. "okay." I smiled. "Well that's great. I just didn't want to be alone. Sorry."
"You know you don't have to apologize to me, right?" He smiled and nodded. "I'm going to apologize one more time and then I'll be done. Sorry." I laughed a little. I admired how apologetic he is. I also felt bad that he had to feel like he had to apologize about so much. I don't want him to have to apologize to me because I understand.
"What do you want to do today?" Michael asked me. "well, I wanted to decorate because I'm extremely late to do so." He laughed a little and despite me not knowing why, I didn't ask. "I was also planning on doing last minute shopping." A smile appeared on his face. "Did you buy me a gift?" I smiled and nodded. He looked ecstatic as if he would explode with happiness. I was exploding with happiness. I am happy.
"Well, go do your shopping and we could meet back at your place to put up the decorations. Is that good?" I agreed and left quickly. I felt happy at that moment. I was happy to be around Michael.
I got in my car and put in a CD. Panic at the Disco's When The Day Met The Night began to play and I smiled. Around Christmas is when my life seems clear. Like I'm genuinely happy.
I arrive at a mall and see Calum out front. Ever since the night at my house we hadn't spoken. I twiddled with my thumbs as I approached him. At first his face was full of confusion, but then he brought me into a warm hug. I smiled into his shoulder (which was a bit awkward). "I'm so sorry." I said hugging him tightly. "It's okay, Luke. It was my fault honestly."
We break the hug and I look at his face. The black eye was slowly leaving his face. I feel ashamed and move my eyes to the ground. "I'm sorry I did that to you. I just..." I sighed. "Luke, it's fine. Please don't beat yourself up over this. Let's change the subject, okay?" I nod. "So, what're you doing here?" He asked. "Well, I'm buying presents. That reminds me, I bought one for you." He smiled and laughed, "same."
"Well, we should exchange them at some point." He smiled and agreed. "Hey, do you want to come get a gift for Ashton with me?'" He smiled and answered with a simple "yes."
We made our way into the store. We were there for over two hours looking for a gift for someone who has just about everything (except actual human feelings). We settled on a box of chocolates for him. It was simple and kind of meaningful. He;d probably just give it to one of his many love interests.
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Michael and I met up at about four. He was dressed nicely which made me smile to myself. "Ready to decorate a bomb-ass Christmas tree?" He asked holding up some tinsel. "Of course."
We set up the tree and began to put the lights on it. It took a while because we decided it'd be a good idea to decorate Michael instead. After I was done making him a Christmas tree, we took the decorations off of him and got back to the actual tree. We out the ornaments on and were finally finished. I was satisfied with the work we'd done together and while he looked at the tree all I could see was him.
He looked at me and smiled softly. "We make a good team." He wrapped his arm around my shoulder and hugged me. "That we do." My stomach got butterflies as I took into consideration how close we were.
I looked at him slowly. In that moment I just said "screw it" and when he looked at me, I kissed him. I didn't know why, but i did. What is it the say about living in the moment? Live in the moment because the future is uncertain?
While these thoughts were running through my head, I was still kissing him and he was kissing me. I let go and apologized multiple times."It's fine. Don't worry." He ran his hands through his hair looking stressed. "Michael, what's wrong?" He sighed heavily and dropped onto the couch. "I have a boyfriend." The shock made me face drop with no emotion what so ever. "Oh." I dropped next to him and looked forward. "yeah..." The silence filled the room."But you invited me to Christmas. You took me on what I thought was a date. You..." He sighed again. "I know, but I only invited you because he was going to be out of town and I didn't mean for that to be a date. I'm so sorry luke." I felt sick to my stomach, but I tried to hide it. "It's fine." My voice shook a little.
"I've, um, I've got to go. I'll talk to you later, okay?" He said grabbing his jacket. "Yeah." I said as I sat on the couch emotionless. He walked out the door and I'd knew how bad I just screwed up.
The hours passed by and I sat on the couch watching TV. My phone was on full blast, but Michael still hadn't called. I was upset and I couldn't get over the fact that this was my fault. It was all my fault because I had my chance weeks ago and I turned him down.
It began to get too late for him to even be awake. The tears started to pour from my eyes. It was Christmas eve and I was crying myself to sleep. It shouldn't be like this.
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Merry christmas eve, Technically it's christmas here due to the fact that it's 12:15 AM...
Anyways, sorry about the lack of updates, I'm working on it
Enjoy this train wreck. Love you all.
- ashley xx
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Screaming Colors // Muke
Fanfiction"i don't know what color your eyes are, but i bet they're beautiful." or Seeing color didn't make michael feel special at all, but luke definitely did. // Muke fanfic // // ORIGINAL IDEA //
