Your POV:
~~ I walked into the quiet room and looked at the lifeless body struggling to breathe on the blank white bed.
My feet travelled over and sat down next to her trembling figure.
I reached for her weak, wrinkled hand and a tear sat on the brim of my green eyes.
Her ring was gone. She fought against it but the doctors forced her to take it off because of her treatment.
She looked at me and her lips curved up.
“Hey there beautiful” she spoke hardly above a whisper.
I could barely speak in front of her. I couldn’t bear to see her savouring her life like this.
Why couldn’t she come back home? I didn’t want to lose her to anyone.
She was my everything.
Her body shook with fear as the life support machine attached to her starting making strange noises.
“I love you Anna, I love you more than myself sweetheart”
Before I could answer her a harsh women tore my tiny hand away from hers and dragged me outside.
I wanted to stay next to her. I wanted to lie down near her and hear her soft heart beat against my ear as I slept. I wanted to feel her chest slightly rise up and down with each breathe she took.
The women embraced me tightly and looked down at me with tears falling out of her eyes.
“Your mummy has gone to a better place hunny”
“Where has she gone miss?”
“To sleep” she whispered picking me up and kissing my rosy red cheek.
“I love you mummy, please wake up soon” I breathed against the strong glass separating me from her. ~~
“Hey Anna”
A voice tore through my thoughts and I shook my head free.
I blinked a few times to make the tears go away.
“H-h-hey Niall” I sniffed.
He sat down in front of me in the dark booth placed in the far corner of the coffee shop.
“Are you feeling okay?” he asked looking into my eyes, concerned.
“Yeah I’m fine just thinking about my mum” I laughed slightly to hide the pain clearly visible in my shaky voice.
He pursed his lips together and placed his cold hand on mine.
I smiled at his actions and looked away from his piercing blue eyes trying to find out the truth about me.
“So why did you call me here?” he cheerfully asked, removing his hand away and tucking it under the table.
“Oh no reason. I just wanted to um talk to you”
He nodded and waved for a waiter.
“Can I have a Frappuccino and one…” he ordered his gaze shifting to me.
“Uh hot chocolate please” I said and the waiter jotted down our drinks.
“Thanks” we said in unison as the 23 year old man strode off to the desk to hang up our order.
The conversation started getting less awkward by the minute and as we were laughing at everything and nothing my phone buzzed about in my pocket.
I reached for it and slid my thumb against the screen to unlock it.
I opened the unread message and gasped.
“I know what happened to your mum fag and to be honest that should have happened to you instead bitch. Cancers a twat but you’re an even bigger one so why don’t you just go die? I don’t understand what keeps you breathing I mean no one likes you anyway. You’re so ugly.”
Anon.
My hands trembled as I continuously sniffed to keep the tears in but there was no use.
“Excuse me” I whispered quickly, rushing out of the shop before I broke down.
The rain greeted me as Niall shouted my name on the top of his lungs but nothing could make me turn around.
I hugged my bruised body and ran down the wet streets hoping to get run over by a car so everyone would be happy.
No one liked me.
Was I that bad? Am I that useless?
Nialls POV:
The conversation between us started getting funnier by the second before her phone slightly vibrated against her pocket.
I took a sip of my steaming Frappuccino and looked her reading a text.
Just as I was about to ask her who it was from she started shaking unconditionally and stormed out with tears running down her pale face.
I stumbled after her in the pouring rain screaming her name but nothing would make her turn around.
My head spun as my shoes clicked on the hard concrete ground trying to catch up to her.
“ANNA” I called for a final time before giving up and puffing for breath on a side street.
I carried on after a few minutes of panting and continued to chase her to her house.
“Finally” I coughed as I swung her front door open.
I entered, completely drenched by the water spitting on me and slightly skid on the shiny laminate as I tried to be quick and jog up the stairs to her room.
Storming in I saw her bag thrown to the side with her phone next to it.
I bent down on my knees to reach for it.
My eyes widened as I read the text message over and over.
Why would someone say that to such a beautiful girl?
Anna…where was she?
My thoughts trailed off as I heard soft sniffles from the room next door.
I quietly tip toed to the bathroom and peeked through the crack in the worn out wooden door.
Her beautiful body lay on the cold tiled floor. Her mascara stained her cheeks as she abused herself.
Her gentle hands reached for a blade sitting on the cabinet and I shook my head fiercely.
“I won’t let you hurt yourself” I breathed out but before I could enter a pair of tight hands grasped my mouth and pulled me back.
“Let her” he chuckled against my ear making me furious.
She’s your daughter for God’s sake I thought.
I tried to break free but his grasp only got tighter.
He pushed me to the door and forced me to look.
“Let’s enjoy the show” he said smiling.
She tore through her delicate skin and the scarlet liquid poured out spelling the word ‘ugly’.
Her hands shook but her eyes lit up. She threw her head back laughing as the blood continued to spit out from her damaged body.
She got joy from hurting herself. She knew it was sick to see happiness in pain but it was how far she had already come.
There was no turning back now.
A/N
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Fanfiction"She was the air I would kill to breathe, it was just unfortunate that to be able to breathe I had to kill her"
