Lou I know I forgot your birthday this year bit we've been through a lot. I know we aren't the same as we used to be, lately though even though you lay next to me in bed every night it feels like we sleep in separate beds in separate houses thousands of miles apart. I miss you being next to me, I love you so much and I'm bad at showing it. Me forgetting your birthday just shows I'm not a good whatever we are now. Baby I want you to know no matter what happens you're always my one and only. Whether if I'm alive or if I did happen to pass, I'll always love you and you're absolutely perfect to me and I want you to know that every day
