[Unfinished] I Hate You Jooheon

Disappointments

"Do you like me?" Jooheon looked right into my eyes. He stopped walking. He wanted an answer. "Why?" I asked back. How was I supposed to answer? Of course I liked him. I loved him. But I couldn't tell him that. Not when I first met him. Although... it wasn't our first time meeting each other.
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During the end of their "Hero" promotions, Monsta X had came to Singapore along with Sistar for a fanmeet. (Yes, I'm from Singapore.) Of course I had to go. Who knows when I would get to see them again right? So I did, and bought the VIP tickets. To make it short, we had Hi Touch and when I was at Jooheon, I blurted out "Oppa saranghae!" I was pretty sure I wasn't the only one that said that. He interlocked hands with me and replied in a sweet low voice, "Aw, thank you~" At one point of the fanmeet after that, Jooheon was whispering to Minhyuk and he pointed at me. I was so happy at that time but it has already been a year and he probably doesn't remember me.
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"What do you mean why? I just want to know," Jooheon snapped at me. Wait what? What did I even do? I was just daydreaming about him and all of a sudden he snaps at me. I became slightly irritated as well and replied, "No. I don't." He stared at me for a few seconds, then looked away. I was confused. What happened to the sweet Jooheon I met back then? What was this? I guess this is how he is in real life. That's disappointing. I sighed.

One of the staff saw us and came up to us. "Lunch break! Be in the studio by 1pm okay!" she said cheerfully and went off. I looked at her as she walked away. Probably because I didn't want to look at Jooheon. But he was already gone. He went into the studio. I guess he didn't want lunch so I went to the cafeteria by myself.

As I ate my lunch, I saw San E coming out of the dance studio. He was discussing something with one of the staff. When their conversation ended, he saw me and walked towards me. I stood up to greet him. "Where are the girls?" I asked. He told me that they had to practice and they'll have their lunch at 1pm. "So how is it, with Jooheon? I heard he's your bias." He smiled cheekily and sat down opposite me. I know I should be kind of fangirling because it's San E but I have talked to him a couple times so I got over it. Probably. "He doesn't know that. And I'm thinking he doesn't like me? Or is that how he is in person?" I stopped eating. I don't know. I didn't have much appetite to begin with. "He's usually really friendly. I'm always spotting him making new friends. Maybe he's tired?" San E himself was quite unsure. Well he wasn't close with Jooheon so he wouldn't know. I was quite surprised when he didn't ask further about what happened
but I decided to tell him anyways. At least some of it. I was in the middle of my rant when suddenly, "Oh hey!" San E said loudly so that I would stop ranting. I turned around to see Jooheon staring right at me.