[Unfinished] I Hate You Jooheon

Confusion

I turned around to see Jooheon staring right at me. Did he hear..? I didn't know what to do. His gaze was so fierce, he looked as though he could kill anyone that offended him today. I was scared. Suddenly, he turned away and walked back to the studio. I looked at San E, he gave me the look to go after him and so I went. Each step I took was heavier than before. Finally I was at the door. I pulled up all my courage and turned the door knob. He slammed the pen onto the table and stared at me again. "Can I sit here?" I asked, my legs trembling. It felt like I was walking into the lion's den. He motioned for me to sit down and he looked back at the notebook in his hands. He grabbed it tightly. I wanted to ask if he was alright but I decided not to. After all, it was pretty obvious that he definitely wasn't alright, and asking him may agitate him further. So I decided to sit in silence and watch him. It was quiet for a long time until the producer came in to tell us to get ready. The cameramen started to adjust their cameras and the stylists came in to touch up our makeup. I continued watching Jooheon fiddle with his pen and notebook. Soon, it was time to start shooting. Jooheon still had an unpleasant look on his face.

"3.. 2.. 1.. Cue!"

His face lit up. I looked at him, slightly confused and unsure. "Ah, Euna-ya~ This is the song you'll have to sing. Take a listen and tell me if it's alright~" He spoke sweetly. I looked at him. "Is there something wrong?" He asked. "Nothing, you're just really cute." I answered straight back. I looked away. I guess personalities do change from on screen to off camera. He blushed a little and looked away too. Well his acting skills are pretty good I must say. He played the song for us to hear. As I listened to the song, I read the lyrics. I realised how sweet yet seemingly sad the lyrics were. Maybe he was longing for his ex-girlfriend? Is that why he was so cold to me? And then the song ended. "How is it?" He asked. He looked at me with these pair of eyes I just couldn't read. "It's really good, I really like the lyrics. Did you write it for someone? Like your ex..?" I immediately regretted asking that question. He stared at me for less than a second before smiling again. "Yeah I did write it for someone... our Monbebes." He grinned cheekily. His eyes looked like there was something more to it though, but I just couldn't pick out what. After that, I recorded my part and he quickly recorded his. We listened to it again for the last time then we ended our shoot. After the staff left, it was just me and him in the studio again. We were quiet for a while, before I finally picked up my courage again. "Jooheon-ssi, do you want to eat dinner together..? You haven't eaten all day and..." Before I could continue, he stood up abruptly and walked out. I was left all alone in the room. So this is what Jooheon is like in real life... I sighed. I was hungry before, but I lost all appetite to eat. I decided to eat anyways, since it would be a long day again tomorrow.

I opened the door and saw him standing outside leaning against the wall. Suddenly, he grabbed me and pushed me against the wall. He leaned in close to my ear, and I could feel his breathe against my skin. What is he doing? I wanted to push him away. But instead, he just walked away. I was in shock, not sure how to respond. It didn't seem to register into my head. What just happened?