Temptation Beyond The Soul

#11

Lisa

"Ya know I'm really gonna miss my father. I feel kinda bad about it all." Tionne nodded her head in understanding. I was going to miss my father, but I feel like I'm at home here with Ti and her moms. I just got here yesterday and they already treat me like I'm their own flesh and blood.

 "Yeah, but at least you got me!" Tionne yelled while cheesing widely. I rolled my eyes and flicked my hand at her. Though she's right. Ti is my sister and I need her with me at this time. Especially since I won't have my father with me. But hey, I'll see him on my birthday.

 "Well Ti. Yeah I guess. What we gonna do after we graduate this year?" She bit down her lip and shrugged her shoulders. She looked a bit nervous to tell me something. It kind of hurt me to see that she was a little close minded. Until she decided to open her mouth.

 "I wanna dance ya know. I used to dream about having thousands of people coming to see me, ya feel me? Sold out Madison Square Garden!" She said excitingly. I nodded my head with a huge smile spread across my face. After she said that, I didn't hesitate to tell her my plans.

 "I wanna rap. I mean its something I'm passionate about. When I was smaller I use to try and impress my father all the time! I mean this man was a musician! I just stopped and forgot about him. I said fuck it, I don't need that nigga's approval!" Tionne laughed and raised her eyebrow.

 "you said 'fuck it' when you were smaller?" I chuckled and shrugged my shoulders.

 "I been cussing since I was 4. My momma ain't care! When she died my dad made me stop. She the reason I carry a nine in my locker." Tionne giggled and got up off the bed, messing with the stuff on her dresser.

 "I always wanted a momma and a daddy." she mumbled, I didn't say anything though. I didn't think it was meant for me to hear, I just skipped over it.

  My stomach began to turn, thinking how my life would be without my father in it. I'd probably be passed around foster homes, or something like that. I don't have too much family. Even though my dad wont be in my life as much as he used to be, at least he'll be trying. Well hopefully he'll be trying. I know Ti's got it bad though. She don't even know how her daddy Looks!

 "So, what's Ms. Gayle cooking, cause I'm hungry as a motherfucker!" I yelled with a huge smile spread across my face, to release the tension from the room. But obviously it didn't feel like it was released to Tionne. She just shrugged her shoulders and continued messing with the necklaces and earrings in her jewelry box.

  "Ti, you alright?" She nodded her head and put her stuff back in there places. Tionne turned to face me and leaned her back on the dresser.

  "Mama's probably gonna make you get a job soon. When you get settled and all." I shrugged my shoulders and played with my fingernails.

  "You think ya momma gonna let me go to Tupac's house?" Tionne shook her head with her eyes widely open.

 "She don't even let me go over there! She only lets me go to Faith, you and Kim's house. Other times I gotta lie."  I sighed deeply and looked out the window, seeing it was dark.

  "Does she let ya go out after 6?"

  "Nope.."

  "She cooking tonight?"

  "No, shes sleep."

   An evil smirk slowly crawled upon my face as I moved my fingers like the villains do in all the movies. I think most of y'all know what I'm thinking.

 "Sneak out with me Ti." Tionne's head jerked around to face me.

  "Hell no! You know what my mama would do to me I she found out we snuck out at 10 pm at night?" I shrugged my shoulders.