Attracted

"baby please stay with me!!"

WARNING!!

self harm and depression is consisted in this chapter... so if u don't want to read those bit's skip it but i will warn u when it happens

2 week later

people can change in a 2 weeks ....

it's possible

coz i did....

Hunter has been ignoring me and he basically calls me names .... verbally bullying is the word but not physically thank god. i haven't told anyone but i'm back to old habits.... not eating and cutting.
i've been disrespected by many people and to be honest i'm over it....

i leave this house in 4 weeks i'm so happy, i can by an apartment with emily.

i haven't heard from mum in 1 week which is a long time so i hope she's ok

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i got up and pulled black ripped skinny jeans on with a nirvana shirt and black leather jacket, i pulled some combat boots and let my hair stay down naturally

yea my style has changed to .

i walked down stairs to be greeted by everyone besides Hunter....he just stared.

"breakfast?" Lachy asked "no i'm not hungry" i replied politely "i haven't seen you eat for agers" Calum said with a worried expression

i snapped "i have" all went quiet

"i need to go" i whispered.

i walked out the door

truth is i'm still the innocent good girl on the inside.... the outside just isn't showing it anymore

i'm more broken than i've ever been

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i finally got home after a boring day out

i opened the door and walked into the lounge room to see Hunter making out with some other friggin chick. they stopped and looked at me.

"hey fatty" the girl said smirking, i looked down at my feet and i looked back up to see Hunter just staring.

"leave bitch... god" the girl scoffed, i scurried away and tears pricked at my eyes.
i ran in front of the mirror and took my clothes off so i was just in my underwear.

was i really that fat? i hadn't eaten for ages

i can't remember the last time i ate
i screamed. In spite of anger I punched the mirror 4 times causing it to smash.
my knuckles were bleeding and i fell to the ground and started crying
my face was burried in my hands

i crawled to my bathroom and grabbed the things that i would have thought twice about using 2 weeks ago but now i don't care at all

SELFHARM PART SKIP IF NEEDED

i grabbed the blade that said failure

why u ask??

because i have failed at everything in life

i reached my wrist and gragged the sharp blade against it... i cried and dragged it along 2 more times making 4 cuts from failure

blood was already rapidly coming out and it stung like hell

i grabbed the Friends one and dragged it against my other wrist 5 times

each second stung as my wrists were going numb

there was a puddle of blood on the floor

i dropped all my blades and curled into a ball

i cried more

"i want to die, plz plz" i mumbled to myself

"i want to escape!" i yelled scratching at the engraved scar made by my so called dad

life isn't worth living... not for me...

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Hunter P.O.V

she ran upstairs. i can't believe i'm doing this, i don't love ths girl
i love HOPE!!
wait what?
did i just say i love hope?
holy shit ....
i love hope

i stopped kissing the girl, "out of my house" i ordered. "but baby come on we just started" she said licking her lips. "stop now get out" i growled
"it's not coz of that pathetic fat bitch right?" she questioned in disgust

i tensed up and my fists went into balls.

"argh whatever" she flipped her hair and strutted out carelessly

i ran straight Hope's room without hesitation

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when i got there, i heard crying and mumbles

i opened the door and i gasped.

"no no no no no no no" i said running to her and cradling her in my arms

she was lying there looking at me

"hope!! baby!! please answer me!!" i said looking into her dull eyes that showed nothing but brokenness and sadness.

i ripped my shirt of a wrapped it around her wrists but something caught my eyes

'you'll never escape'

tears came down my cheeks

i applied pressure to her cuts

"baby please stay with me!!" i said crying

i cradled her in my arms and pulled out my phone and called the ambulance

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i heard a buzz from Hope's phone

i reached to get it and it was from an unknown number

unknown - don't kill yourself.... i want that job myself xx

no no no

i looked at her body... she wasn't fat at all she was skinny actually way too skinny.... she had lost weight quickly in 2 weeks... she hasn't been eating.
SHIT
she's been starving herself
her eyes were slowly started closing
"no no please please!! i'm sorry this is my fault!" i said crying into her neck. i stroked her hair "this wouldn't have happened wouldn't have happened if i wasn;'t an arse!!! i did all for love!! i tried my hardest not to fall for you coz i would end up hurting you! but i can't not love you!! and i hurt you anyway!!" i cried some more.

the corner of her lips turned up a bit

but then that's when her eyes closed

"no no HOPE!!! HOPE HOPE!! NO NO BABY BABE PLEASE!!" i yelled

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cliff hanger!!!!!