what they use to have.

chapter 5

nothing was really the same after Niall left i lost my parents and everything was ruined everything,now that he has came back and who knows what his excuse is for everything ,whatever it is i wont take it ,i wont ,he left ,in a snap & now he thinks he can talk to me like he used to but no he the reason i became mute hes the reason i hate the world and why im mute he it buit i guess if i kept going on with that excuse mo one will believe me or care because i guess if i told him he wouldn't ,he left with no words cause he didn't care for me oh well.

Monday

Alan has been jumping on my bed for what seems like hours but in reality its been ten minutes ,he had call me from his car saying he was here but i didn't answer then he tried banging at my door i didn't answer then the idiot went through the window and now hes here on my bed jumping trying to get me to my classes i have been trying to avoid since a week & honestly i wouldn't mind staying home for another week months maybe ill be home schooled but alan had other plan and his plan was he was going to take me to my class one way or another and some how i don't know why because Niall is gonna be there and i really REALLY don't want to see him but i guess he thinks were still friends, lies

during the wake up call i would try to tell alan i really didn't want to see niall or anybody but he ignored it really simple but i really didn't want to go to school and have him explain to me this ,that and i really didn't want to see his face when i told i didn't forgive him ,or maybe i did ...

somehow alan had me dressed up and ready to go but i still didnt want to go so i stood in porch not moving while he was looking at me threw the mirror of the car till he pulled it down "are you gonna get in baby?" he said pouting "nope" i mouthed,he got out of the car and he scooped me in his arms and now im heading me way to my class fuck.

im sitting in the back and i can see nialls head up in front talking to some people ,it takes so much not to walk from class ,Finally the bell had ranged and i rushed out of there the fastest i could but it wasn't fast enough niall was right in front of me but somehow he managed to stop which caused me to fall and drop my stuff ,maybe it was an accident ? i was going to pick it up when niall try ed to help me but we looked at mew for a few moments then hes few of his friends started snickering till niall "could you watch where your going ,its not so hard " i was shocked the he had forgot me ."are you gonna answer me ....oh wait you cant " he just started laughing and walked away with his friends ,not only did he forget me and pretty much just insulted me ,but he didn't even acknowledge me at all he didn't try to get to know me or anything because he got told by the people his hanged out with those people told niall about me they told him everything and he treated me like that because they treat me like that but could he have not seen im ellie ?

the day went pretty fast ,well i guess it did for me since i spent the whole time in the library ,when i was going home i stopped by starbucks and i didn't have to tell Trevor anything he just knew what i wanted he was a friend but not so much but he knew me and he knew i talked and why i stopped and pretty much everything about me, i liked him that i had someone at least there.."here" i was interrupted thought when he handed me my drink and sat down i was glad he sat down i put my notebook in front of me ."i see you dont want to talk ,alright" i look down cause he looked disappointed "ellie whats wrong love" i hated when he called me that but he knew it was the only way to know so i wrote down and handed him his stomach "hes back trev" he looked at me like he was trying to get a emotion out of my face "and thats bad ?" i wrote back"no but he forgot me" he looked at me for a while till he signed "why does he matter to you so much ellie he left in a snap just stop ellie you have to also give up on trying to remember all the good stuff just forget about everything and redo your life a bit " it took my by surprise that he had sayed that but i guess inside i felt like he was right "i know " i signedhe automatically say that i was tired so he replied "go home ellie " it was no mean thing because he knew if we would continue with the topic i would burst so i just did what he told me and walked home alone/

by the time i got home it was late i guess staying forever in the library wasn't such a good idea for a day but i guess it was better than being insulted all day,when i entered i just threw everything on the ground and went up to me room and got ready for bed since i had nothing else better to do i was slowly falling to sleep till my started to beep ,i thought it was trevor wondering if i got home alright but i was so wrong .*hey ellie belly ,i was wondering why i haven't seen you all week and when you are coming back to school since i haven't seen you around in forever?i really want to explain so please come back tomorrow ,yea? anyways goodnight i hope you take up my idea xx-Niall