what they use to have.

truth to be told

when i saw Niall sitting there i panicked but instead of running out Trevor gave me a sympathy look then handed me my drink and pointed to a table in the coner so i just sat there till trevor came over sat with me "does it bother you " he signed i just shock my head no "ellie " he spoke i didnt answer because he saw threw my lie and why bother ,after a few mintues of silence i heard my name being called but it was from niall shit i panicked so i hid my face into trevor shoulder but he had already saw me but hoped he hadnt trevor soon got what i ws trying to do so he put his arm around me and made me hid more ointo his chest but i guess it didnt work since i peeked and saw niall infront of us with 2 of his lades we stared more till he spoke "hey " no insult ? nothing ?

i just stared till i was gonna sigh back but i chose not to since he didnt understand so i sat withouht speaking

his two lads left and it was just the three of us in silence till trevor spoke "what the hell do you want prick"he was getting up in front of me but i just hid into the chair "oh im so scared ,who bloody hell are you?" niall spat "someone that remberes my dear ellie over here" shut up shut the bloody hell up ugh im so screwed "what are you talking about " he sounded like he knew what trevor was talking about but he seemed unsure "ellie" "remember ellie " he just stared at me and said no words ,shit he knew shit shit shit

but he didnt say nothing he just walked out left behind his lads and everything behind so i guess he didnt know what were talking about great .

i felt like i should be relieved that he didnt know but pissed out the fact he didnt even say anything what happens if he did know ,what would he have done ?

monday

to this day i have been thinking about niall still but i needed to stop cause i was gonna go to school get the same things i get every day being insulted but something about today made me think it wouldnt happen and it would be a peaceful day from what happened between me and niall .

*during lunch*

so far i had nothing to do with the crew so it going good ,but nothing can go right in my life maybe , i headed to get something to eat since i was acctualyungry so i went to the vending machine till i felt shadows around me but i knew who it was so didnt want to look so i didnt then i felt a hand on my back it made me jump i turned arround and found one of nialls friends ,he didnt look like he was gonna say something or anything he just stare at me then i went back to wait in line

i guess i was thinking to much why he wasnt saying anything mean about me becausue i all of sudden got hot breath next to my neck and he whispering in my ear "your next sweetheart" he made me flinch i just quickly ran out of line and left simple thing

i wasnt hungry anymore

so far i havent ran into anybody beside one of them but is was better then all of them

i decided that i would just walk home since my flat is close ,i hope

i decided to drop by starbucks

i havent talked to trevor since that weekend but i kinda loved how he stood up for me but that what friends do ? right i walked in and saw trevor just trevor he smiled right when he saw me and i smiled back he mouthed a drink name and i just nodded

i found a seat and few moments later trevor came back with a drink and he just sat and stared at me but all i took was i just mouthed 'i love you' to him and he just got up and walked back to behind the counter and murmured 'me too' along the way,

The next day

i was on my way to school i have completely done nothing of work but im hoping of so far of what i have done can get me to get my diploma and get out of that death hole but i mean nialls still there so egh

i was at my locker to get my things for last period but my bloody ass shortness made it hard to have get stuff from my top locker

i struggling to get the damn book when i feel a hand on top of mine but higher then i look up and its niall.... shocker he gets the book and thrown in on the floor ,so much for my awws ,he stares at the book in the floor and walks away ,okay than, very well then, screw you too.

school was Finally over and I was walking home when a car stood by me and stopped and put there window down &the face I wished 

was there.

Niall stood there watching me as I stared at him the same.he spoke "get in the car" totally i didnt know how to respond but mouth "why ,"i didnt say it was a question ,get in the car ellie !" softer then rought ,alright i just got in the car so nothing could've happened .

evey since i have been in the for two minutes he he has not said one wor- "ellie belly?" oh no "am i right ? he took a glance to me ,i looked back,did he except me to speak ? "ellie" talk" "now " well than

i just want to go home ! 

"ellie "

"ELLIE" now he was mad since he had stoped the car .

"ellie i remember you ,why didnt you tell me you were ellie ? ,i made fun of you because people told me stuff so i thought it was funny so i made fun of you and i thought you were ellie but i texted you and you told me you didnt go to school so i assumed that it wasnt you so i continued ,im so sorry ellie ,for leaving ,for doing this too you " "look at me ellie" 

i honestly didnt care what he had just said , just wanted to get out that car and walk but egh ,but i decidedd it would be better than staying in the car ,so i just got out and walked the direction of my house 

"ELLIE" go away ,god damit ,i took a peek and he had gotten out of the car ,so now i was running till he was in front of me 

"ellie stop,why are you doing this ,you have changed your not you ,what happened " this kid just doesnt get it , quiet annoying that he the reason for everything in my life i lost my relationship with my parents i only have my brother and trevor i guess .

he wasnt gonna leave unless he gets a answer so i sat on the curb of the sidewalk and opened my note book and wrote my answer and gave it to him and walked away ,i was done.

NIALL POV.

she had just left and gave me a note ? 

Niall ,just stop your the reason i couldnt answer to you ,like a normal person ,but whos fault was that ,niall? YOURS  i just wish you knew what you made me lose when you left but you dont so next time dont go up to me and start talking like nothings wrong ,but everythings wrong ,and your the reason behind ,so drop it .

its my fault .