Mystery behind the suicide.

New girl

Driving to school was always so quiet, I didn't speak much. Usually it would be loud, blasting music and laughing to get pumped up in the morning.
Now...all you can hear is the car running.
My mom tried to talk to me, I would always have a reason not to speak.
I was either "too tired to speak" or "was feeling a little bit under the weather".

"Kiana." My mom said in a faint voice.
"Hm." I glanced at her.
"You don't seem like yourself today, do you want to just drive back home?"
This hasn't been the first time she had told me. I secretly think she is trying to keep me away from school since she knew Sam was my only friend. Also a lot of people bullied me and Sam was the one who defended me.
"I'm fine mom" i said in a joyful tone so she wouldn't freak the hell out.
We pulled up from school, just another regular day. Instead someone important to me is missing...

"Bye mom"

"Alright I'll pick you up after school"

"Actually Alex is picking me up after school...we are uhh...Going to go shopping? "

I couldn't tell her I was going to see Sam?!? She wants me to get over the fact she isn't alive and not relevant.
That isn't going to happen though that's for sure.
While walking into the school I felt as if all eyes were on me for some odd reason. "Why is everyone staring at me?" I questioned myself.
A few girls laughed and chuckled, some guys starting mooing at me from a distance, but me being the bigger person I walked away.
I guess without Sam to defend me people really think they can get away with being complete assholes.
I was in class procrastinating on doing my work, I was just doodling on my paper. In the back of the class by myself.
"Excuse me everyone" my teacher ms.cooper shouted.
"We have a new student with us, her name is jasmine. I would like you guys to make her feel special."

[MEET JASMINE] 
Jasmine was your average 16 year old girl, she wore classes had freekles with white pale skin, she ware polo shirts with plaid skirts. Talk about fashion right? *sarcastic*.
She was from California . Her father moved here in Indiana for his job, talk about down grade. This small place is shit. Jasmine is very into computers, comic books, and math. She's a nerd basically.

"Find a seat where ever you like hun" ms. Cooper said in a sweet voice.
"T-thank you ms. C-Cooper."
Jasmine stutter while walking away to find a seat.
Here I am still doodling on my paper.
The room got really quiet all the sudden when I looked up and caught jasmine looking lost trying to find a seat.
She look towards the back and saw me, heading towards my direction.
"Oh god no" I said to myself.
I liked being alone most of the time.
So talking to people or even new people. It just was not my thing.

"H-hi I'm jasmine"

"Uhmm I'm Kiana" I glanced at Jasmine then continued to doodle more on my paper.

It was free time and ms. Cooper let us chill for awhile so she put on a movie for the whole class to watch.
For the past two months ms. Cooper would pull me out to see how I've been doing.
Which was a huge drag because I didn't like talking about sams suicide.
Ms. Cooper walks all the way to the back of the room. "You want to talk?"
I replied quickly as possible and used Jasmine as an excuse not to talk to Cooper.
"Uhm actually I'm alright. me and Jasmine are making plans to hang out"

"W-we are?"  Jasmine said with a confused look on her face.

"Oh how nice, glad you're making new friends Kiana" ms.cooper said with joy. Then she walked away to her desk.

"Phew close one" I said.
"W-were hanging out?" Jasmine said very quietly.
"Nooooo, just had to make an excuse because I didn't feel like talking."

"Oh" she responded sounding a bit sad.

while laying my head on the desk, I felt something weird on my foot. While adjusting my boot I found the picture of me and Sam. I stared at it for awhile. My eyes began to tear. At this point I didn't care about crying since it was dark in the room. Everyone was so distracted watching the movie.

"W-who's that?" Jasmine questions.

"That's me and my bestfriend Sam" I responded while wiping my tears off.

"You guys look h-happy"

"We were happy that day" i replied.

"Is s-she here today?"

*sigh* I couldn't even speak.
I looked up and started to watch the movie, I completely ignored Jasmine's question. She puts her head down looking a little upset if she said something wrong. I had to tell her.

"Sam killed herself about two months ago" 
"Why?" She asked

"I ask myself the same question."

"Hey lets hang out after school. I know we just met but, it's nice having knew friends from a new school right away, you can come with me to go see Sam.."

"Sure" Jasmine responded so quickly with a huge smile on her face.

*****Bell rings*****
"Cmon Jasmine we don't have all day" I chuckled.

"I'm c-coming!!"

Oh god you should have seen her, she was running with books stacked in her arms, her packet nearly full, the zipper couldn't zip completely, and her shoes were untied.

"Jesus Christ" I said to myself, "what am I gonna do with her".

My sister Alex parks in from of the school.
"get in loser were going shopping"

"Can you please stop quoting movies, damn."

"Who's your friend?"

"This is Jasmine she's new here"

"H-hi nice to m-meet you"

"Alright are you guys ready to go?"

Off to go see Sam.