Cuts & Cures

Chapter 1(iii)

But then........

I saw the lights of the hospital lamp.I felt so disappointed on myself.But at least I did hurt myself pretty badly.

"Airin,are you awake?".Mom's voice is so tender.She is a person with lot of love unlike Father.Everytime Father beats me,she would always be there beside me.

"Yes,mom".I answered her with just a slow voice.I can't bare to look at her face.She took to much burden for me.

"Airin,why did you do that dear?".Mom started to touch my face gently.She won't understand it.I don't want her to look at me like this.

"I just want to play,Mom. I'm totally fine.But Mom,can you take me home?".I lied to her.Mom starts to stroke my hair like the usual thing that she woulds do for me after Father beats me.

"We can't go home yet,my dear Airin.Your cuts are too much to go home now.Stay here sweetie?Until you are healed okay,dear?".I forgotten how Mom's voice is.Its so persuasive.How could I say no?

I just nod at her and tell her to take a breath cause she has been here since dusk.She went into the shower to take a bath.

"You're stupid...you have no good on living either....you should just cut again.....Airin...cuts always makes you happy right?".They came again.Again and again the whispers were whispering in my mind.

"Go awayyyy!!!!!!".I shouted which caused a big scene in the ward.My mom was also shocked by the scream.The doctor in charge of me gave me a sedative to make me relax.

Few weeks has passed.They didn't came for me.I was discharged from the hospital two week after the wounds had heal.

"YOU BITCH!WHY ARE YOU STILL ALIVE?!YOU ARE JUST GOING TO MAKE ME SUFFER MORE!I'LL KILL YOU MYSELF!".And here I am,still got beatings by Father.

"Dear,stop it.She is sick already,don't make it worse".Mom is still like herself.Always defends me.

Father stopped his beatings.I'm just his punching bag.I don't need a life if I am just going to live like this.

Father kept me in the store so I won't be cutting or hurting myself again.Mom always unlocked me and let me sleep with her.

"Airin.....we are backkkkkk~~~~~~~".Its them.No.I'm not their puppet anymore.Why me?

"Airin....we know you missed us~We can tell by your looks...Airin~~~~....".It disappeared.

What should I do......