Cuts & Cures

Chapter 2

2009(Airin's Biggest Cut)

It's been years,the whispers didn't came.I'm still taking all the beatings by Father. He still makes me his punching bag.

Bruises were seen on all parts of my body.School is a must.Everytime the teacher saw those bruises,the answer would always be the same.

"I fall from somewhere."is all that I could answer.

At school,I am the most popular kid that have a lot of problems.My days were filled with beatings and bullies.

Then,I thought of Mom.She was the only one that I could lean on to.I do have friends but they were all fake. When I'm in trouble,they would always back off from me.

I locked myself in my locker and thought how miserable my life is.The thought of dying is alwas there.But I just didn't have chance to.

'Airin,why didn't you just killed yourself....Father hates you..Mom hates you....'-I thought by myself while crying.Then,I heard my name was called.I focused on the voice and at once I know who that is.

"Airin....why....".They're back to make me their puppet.

"What do you want?".I cried loudly in the closet.They didn't answer me.I need my mom for this time.I'm not strong to resist them.

"Airin...let's have...FUN..shall we?".This time,it was a boy's voice.He sounds familiar. I think I've heard his voice somewhere.

"What kind of fun?".I'm curious with that fun that they were stating.Is it cutting?Jump through window?What!What!?!

"Airin..dear~~Use this and cut your wrist....we will count...who has the most....wins~~~".It's mom's voice.Is it really her?Does she really hate me?

"Okay, what tool should I use?I don't have a knife".I'm really excited to make Mom happy.As long as she was happy,I'll be too.

"Try this dear~~".It's really Mom.I saw her.She is smiling at me.She is happy.

"Mom?The knife?Huh?".I'm blurred with this situation.

"Yes,dear....take it".Then,she disappears.I took the knife that she puts in front of me.Its the old knife that I used.It looks so new.

"One,two,three...".I started counting all my cuts.But I couldn't finish it until 50,because the teacher opened my locker.I don't want to live.I want my mommy happy.

"Airin,what are you doing!".The teacher was frightened because of seeing too much blood.

"I need to.....".It turns black.The knife,I stabbed it on my tummy before I faint.I can't open my eyes.I can feel that Mom is going to be happy.

"Why did you cut!".I heard a man's voice.It sounded like Father.That can't be him.

He never cares about me.All he does is beats me.I'm still in the world of pitch black.Maybe I will be staying in this world.PITCH BLACK WORLD.

I don't want to live anymore. There's nothing that I should live for.Maybe I deseved this.Maybe they were right.Some day mom will be happy.

"Airin...you...can't....join..us".The whispers said.Why?I want to be happy like them too.

Suddenly........