Dear Somebody, (A Book Of Open Letters)

To The Girl I Secretly Like...

H-hi.

Um, hello. How are you?

Damn. Even in a letter, I don't know how to start a conversation with you.

Well, I guess, I just want you to know that, I may not be able to express my feelings for you, or give any signs that I like you, but that doesn't change the fact that I like you a lot.

It's just that, as a guy, it's harder to make a move.

Ironic, isn't it? When girls like you expect guys to do the first move.

You might say, "Why don't you just give it a shot, and say whatever you want to say? You got nothing to lose."

It's not that easy, you know. Confessing. And there are many reasons why it's hard.
1) You might not believe me.
2) You might be secretly creeped out by me, or you find me weird, strange or whatever.
3) We're best friends, and my confession might complicate our friendship.
4) You might not be interested in boys.
Or fifth, I am just not your type.

Or, you might say, "What's stopping you?"
Easy.

Rejection.

If I confess, is it guaranteed that you will like me back?

Will you give me a chance to prove myself to you?

And if you did give me the permission to court you, does that give me the sure spot of being your boyfriend?

No.

Because you are more likely to entertain other suitors.

All my effort, time and money will be wasted, if you choose another guy over me.

Then I will regret confessing to you.

But if you reject me, what will happen?

Every day I will ask myself, and my friends and family, "What's wrong with me?"
"What did I do wrong?"

Then again, I will regret confessing to you.

When all I did was to be honest with how I feel.

When all I did was to take a shot, in reaching for my dream, which is you.

So can you see it now?

It's the thought of rejection and regret that's stopping me.

Aside from my shyness, that is.

That's why for now, let me admire you from a distance, and give me time to work on myself as I learn how to be a more responsible guy.

The type of guy who knows how to wait, and act on the right time.

The type of guy who will never worry about rejection and regret, because he is secure about the way he is, and will confidently approach you and say what needs to be said.

The type of guy that will put effort in courting you, not only because he wants you to be his girl, but because he wants to spend the rest of his life with you.

The type of guy that will be afraid to hurt you, because he already knows the meaning and value of true love.

The type of guy who will take you seriously, and will not treat you as if you're just another chick he can easily replace.

The type of guy you will be proud to introduce to your parents.

The type of guy who will never make you jealous, but will make girls jealousy of you.

The type of guy who is deserving of you.

And I can't be that guy now because not only am I young, and needs to prioritize his studies, but also because I'm just a boy.

And that type of guy is called a TRUE MAN.

So for now I guess I'll satisfy myself with stalking you. (just kidding! xD)

No, I guess I'll just try to be nice to you, to be your friend, to be always there for you.

Whenever you need a friend, a shoulder to cry on, a confidante, a protector, a knight in shining armor, a clown, or someone who needs to talk some sense into you.

Because what make boys different from all your girl friends?

We can hear your problems without judging, and you can be sure as heck that we won't let anyone hear about it. What's between us will remain between us.

You can be sure of that.

But even if we turn into the best of friends, when I'm matured enough to love you, expect me to be different from the bestie you came to love.

It's not that I will change, I will just be better.

Because I will be the best boyfriend slash best friend you will ever have.

How?

Duh. With our friendship comes the opportunity for me to know the true you from the inside out.

That way, you will be sure that I will love you for who you really are, and not what you appear to be.

Wouldn't that be a double win for the two of us?

So relax, you might not have a love life now, but someday, in the right time, the person for you, and only you, will come.

It might or might not be me, but who knows?

For now, just don't give away your heart that easily, okay?

Don't have a boyfriend just because almost every girl has one.

Your heart is so precious to be possessed that easily.

It will be like giving away a precious gem for free.

So please don't do that.

Wait for me- I mean, wait for the right one.

Ok?

Ok.

Sincerely,
The Boy Who Secretly Likes You