The Chronicles Of My Mind

➵a walk through hell

I embraced him wholeheartedly

His body dancing along my skin

sinking into it, emotion overcoming me

I yell with tears boiling in my veins

'More ' He says, stroking me along my arms

Giving birth to blood

I can't stop

At this point, the urge is too strong

What I thought I'd given up on

Was only just beginning

So I scream, with a silence so loud

Music blasting in the background

Said somethin' about love

But what could be more addicting than this?

He whispers in my ear

'More, more'

I yell in satisfaction

Looking at my pale arm

The color of freshly picked berries

Tears roll

Far away from recovery

Just beginning

I grab a pill

and swallow it

In hopes of falling asleep tonight

With the demons settling in my head

Occupation at its best

The salty tears form an ocean

Drowning in my own tears

With the last hope I whisper, doubt still in my heart

With no conviction, even accidentally, I whisper:

'' Allah, help me. ''

That night, I thought he didn't hear,

that I was too timid to be responded to

But satan played me

He disgraced me

We took a walk through hell before I realized that there was heaven

I cry now, not because of pain

But remorse

And these tears are dry

And this heart aches

For his heaven

-2013.