The Moaning's Of A Teenage Girl

Anxiety?

ew even the word anxiety makes me anxious,
this is gonna be a deep rant and also something that i have never spoken about to anyone before but i really need to get this out, so here we go :)

I haven't been diagnosed with anxiety or whatever but i swear sometimes i just feel so umm... anxious, and it can be over the most stupid things.

For example, i remember that last year i was scared to get in the shower because, for some reason, i thought that it would collapse the floor/ceiling and i know that is so stupid but i was literally constantly scared of the ceiling collapsing and i was always looking up at the ceilings and you know how you get those cracks, just like where the paint has chipped or something, well i just thought that it meant the ceiling was about to collapse.

It also stopped me from sleeping because i would just lay in bed, trying to be as still as possible because i thought that if i moved the ceiling would collapse, IDK WHAT MY THING WITH THE CEILING COLLAPSING IS OKAY DONT JUDGE ME.

Another time i usually get anxious is when im in the car. For example reversing off my drive at home scares me because our drive slants down towards our house (its not even that steep) but i always worry that the tyres will just loose grip or something and we will crash into the house.

I don't even know why stuff like this happens because i don't have any reason to be scared because I've not suffered from anything like it in the past but sometimes i just get so nervous and anxious like i get goose bumps and if I'm scared i just clench my jaw and my hands/feet. The main thing that happens is that i get sweaty hands, literally most people know me for having sweaty hands all of the time but ive noticed that they only get sweaty when im scared, nervous, anxious or worried etc.

I get sweaty hands at school a lot, its probably because i just don't like the environment cause it makes me nervous. I'm quite shy so i rarely put my hand up and i cant stand the thought of being the centre of attention and i HATE it when the teacher picks on me. My hands literally drip with sweat, and they can be okay one minute but if i start talking about it/thinking about it (like i am now) my hands go sweaty.

SOMEONE TELL ME I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS THESE WEIRD THOUGHTS OKAY I AM WORRIED.