she stares at me for a couple of seconds and then starts to speak.
"hi." she says with a straight face.
my mouth goes dry. trust me i have millions of things to ask her but i can't get anything out.
i've cried my eyes out for her and now that she's here i can't even talk. what do i tell her?
"i've missed you." i blurted out. she looks at me with a disgusted look on her face.
"bullshit." she laughs dryly.
so she is mad at me. fuck. "i really have." i say trying to make her believe me.
"really, you weren't saying that when you were kissing that dumb slut right in front of me." she snapped back. "i told you i was sorry." "well its too fucking late now." she says before walking away.
before she could get anywhere i grab her arm and pull her back. "don't fucking touch me." she says snatching her arm away. "please emily i want to talk." i say practically begging her to stay. "no i can't even stand looking at you right now." "please just five minutes." "ok whatever."
"so where have you been?"
"away." she shoots back quickly.
"why?"
"to avoid whats happening right now." she says pointing to herself and me.
"so you were avoiding me?"
"yep."
i felt a speck of pain and anger go through me.
"why?" i said feeling a bit scared to ask this." she turned with a hurt look on her face.
"because i didn't want to see you." i take a moment.
"why?" i whisper.
"because you fucked me up inside and seeing just might make it worse." she said shakily her voice cracking.
"i said i was sorry." i say on the verge of tears.
she looks at me with tears pouring out of her eyes. at this moment i can see past all of her makeup and bitchy attitude. she's hurt. i hurt her. it's all my fault.
i look away not wanting to cry.
"look at me" she yells. i don't move keeping my head down.
"fucking look at me matt." she yells even louder.
"you got it out of me matt, see? i'm hurting too. you're not the only one."
i can't say anything but sorry.
"sorry won't get the memory of my boyfriend kissing some dumb bitch out of my head." "it's still there matt."
"i love you." i say quietly.
"i wish you did, i really wish you did." she whispers before walking away.
lets all welcome emily because she just made her mark.
-nylaa
