emily
i jump up from my pillow with sweat dripping from my fore head.
wow.
i almost had a wet dream about my ex.
fuck my life.
-sike bitch u thought lolol-
i sigh and get out of bed dragging my feet to the bathroom. i look in the mirror.
i miss him. even if i think i don't i do. but i'm not gonna do shit about it because i'm scared. i'm scared to love.
scared to be loved again.
i look up to the mirror and tears are dripping from my eyes.
while i was crying i realized i smell like shit. i get up and head to the shower. as i turn the water on thoughts run through my head.
my best bet is to just forget about matt. all he's been causing in my life is pain. now i'm catching feelings again and i don't know what to do. man i swear sometimes i just want to go gay.
i step out the shower and head to my room.
different day same shit.
matthew
"you have to fix it or just forget about her man." cameron speaks breaking the painful silence. "i bet she hates me." i say putting my face in my hands. "you don't that yet talk to her." cameron pushes.
"guys i think i should just forget her and move on." i sigh.
maybe chasing after someone that doesn't love you is useless.
no matthew whyy
lol sorry again
stay decent - nylaa:))
