Fade Out

Forbidden

Is it weird to have a crush on a student?
It's just that she looks so familiar how my ex used to look like. I know she's not my ex, I acknowledge that she's a student.
"Mister, I don't understand this..." it's her.
I walk to her, our eyes meet but she turns back to her paper and shows it to me.
"This ... can you explain it to me again."
Her eyes look sad and tired... I can't look again to her. So instead I ex Pl ain't it to the whole class again.
I dismissed the class. The only person who's still here is her and she's sleeping. I pack up my first to teach my following class. I walk up to her where she's at and I see her sleeping quietly, her hair all over her face. I tap her shoulder.
"Sam... Sam wake up." I keep on moving her but instead she starts talking back while sleeping and gets a hold of my hand.
Her hand is so soft.
"Sam?" I let her hold my hand for a couple of more seconds remembering how me and my ex used to hold hands. Thinking about it makes me smile but inside I know this student is not my ex.
Without realizing Sam starts waking up looking at me and then staring back at her hand, which she was still holding mine.
I remove my hand.
"Class ended, I tried waking you up but you took my hand." I said, so she wouldn't get any weird ideas of me or something.
"Oh I'm sorry about that it's just... nevermind sorry." She picked up her things and as she was just about to leave I responded back and said " it's okay... you can tell me if somethings wrong okay." I added a smile and she smiled back and left.
What did I do...
Why did I say that.
Why did I smile.
I walk out of the class and I see small walk away. I walk faster to catch up to her and hug her from behind and tell her.
"Don't move please."she stands perfectly still and I'm pretty sure she's surprised.

" mister are you okay?" She turns around and cups her hands to my cheeks. She was so close. Without thinking I place my hand on her side of her face and I kiss her. Realizing of what I was doing I stop and stare at her dark brown eyes. She's shocked.
"Why..."
"I'm sorry, you just looked like my... um sorry." I let go of her I turn around and I start walking down the hall speeding up my pace, I hear heavy footsteps coming towards me. Someone reaches for my hand, I turn around and it's Sam. She kisses me back and says " tell me after school I will wait for you in class." She hugs me and smiles and leaves.
What have I done. I look around hoping no one saw that, seeing her leave.

"Times up please put down your pencil and place your test on my test when you leave."
Once everyone had left. I hurry and pack up my things and leave. I walk down the empty corridor to the class we were supposed the meet.
I see her there already. She looks at me expecting me to say something which I don't and she starts asking.
" why did you kiss me, what was the reason? Who do you miss Keith " She asked so many questions at once which I heard but what stood out more was the way she said my first name . I answered back, "I missed my ex and you just remind me of her and I shouldn't have done that... I'm really sorry about this." She looked at me with concerned eyes. Is she worried?
"Why did you kiss me back?" I asked.
"Yeah I couldn't leave it to that so I just had to. Your a good kisser by the way, I don't know why your ex left you, your cute."
She smiled I thought of what she said making me think that that's something what my ex would have said.
" hey I will keep this to myself you don't have to worry, it was a mistake I've done mistakes before but kissing a teacher is nothing."
"Thank you."
" No problem well I have to go, don't repeat this again and be careful because you never know what type of person you stumble across." She hugs me and leaves.
I walk right besides her because I leave to probably the direction she's heading to. Once we get out of the building she heads to the right and I go to the left.
I'm afraid of what I just began.
<~ the following days ~
These following days they have been normal but it's amazing how Sam can act as nothing happened she has ignored me whenever she leaves but I'm pretty sure that's how it was before the accident.
I think more about her than usual. I should stop but I can't. Repeating the moment when she kissed me back is unbearable. I miss her kiss. Not my ex but Sam's kiss.