I woke up from the sound of my phone going off. Jacob. and Carter.
Carter-"Goodmorning shithead💕💩"
Me-"mornin💖 asshole"
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Jacob- "Goodmorning 💕 love you😘"
Me- "Mornin. I love you too💕
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I got up and got in the shower. Once I got out I put on makeup.
I walk over to my phone and see that I have a text from Jacob.
"hey beautiful 💖party at my house. at 2. "
I text back with a sure and get up and blow dry my hair. it was already 130. Once I got done I grabbed my phone and walked out the door. I just walked since Jacobs house was like 3 houses away. I knocked and he opened it and I kissed him.
"damnnnnnn"
I heard from inside the house.
Carter,Dylan,Chandler, His gf, Mark, Bryce, Justin (My Bestfriend),Kian, Troye, Chase,Brittany (Taylor's gf) and Taylor.
Taylor was my ex. Taylor Caniff. We didn't break up for anything bad it was just it was best if we just ended it.
"Wanna play truth or dare?" Mark requested.
We all agreed and began playing.
Mark-"Carter, Truth or Dare?"
After he said that Dylan gave him the eye like "don't you fucking say anything bad you fucker".
Carter-"Dare.. duh!"
Mark-" I dare you to kiss Dylan."
Carter-" That's the easiest fucking dare I've ever heard in my life."
After that she kissed Dylan like it was nothing.
We kept playing until we got bored. it was now 4:00 and we decided to do karaoke. of course me and Carter got the only 2 microphones because we were the singers there. We sung a lot of songs like "Sad Song" by We The Kings and stuff. But then we started singing "Breathe Me" by Sia. Like 15 sec into the song I start crying and run outside and sit on the curb. I was crying because I used to self harm because no one liked me. People would say I was fat , or they was going to shove food down my throat so I would choke and die. and stuff like that. until one point I almost committed suicide but Jacob walked in and stopped me.
I hear the front door open then close so I turn around and see who it is. Jacob. He comes up and just hugs me. That's when I started to cry harder. Then he started crying with me.
"I'm sorry babe, it's okay. " he whispered.
Once I eventually calmed down we went back inside. We sung more and did other stuff. Then Taylor came up to me , all drunk and stuff, and asked if he could talk to me outside. I could barely hear what he said because his words were slurring. But I said sure. We went outside.
We get outside and he starts kissing me. I tried to pull away but Taylor was gripping tight on to my wrist. When Jacob Walks outside. Great fucking great.
"Wtf Megan!! I hate you!" he screams.
That's when Taylor lets me go and I fall onto the ground.
Jacob had already went back inside crying.
Fuck. why'd you go outside knowing he was drunk.
That's when I started running but Taylor pulled me back.
"Your not going any fucking where!" he said in gritted teeth.
I tried pulling away but he pushed me on the ground and started kicking me. I finally ran all the way to my house. and ran upstairs. it was like 530 and my parents didn't get home until 630.
I ran to my bathroom and found my old blade that I used to use.
Fuck I promised myself never again. Fuck it. Jacob, the person I loved the most, hated me.
After that I dug the deepest I ever have. I started screaming and crying. I hated myself. just like I used too. I couldn't see anything anymore. I felt like I was dreaming but I was slowly falling asleep. like I was slowly dying. great. I hope Jacob knows that I love him. The last thing I remembered was the last kiss me and Jacob had. at his door step. Then everything grew black. I think I was gone. forever.
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yasssss cuties 💕
I think that was pretty good😈
-Trinn💖
