PUCK IT!

May 23 2013

It was the night of graduation. We sat in silence as we ate our dinner at Vinny's Italian restaurant. At this point it was more him eating than I was. I played with my food, twisting the long strands of spaghetti round and round my fork while trying to balance my head on my left knuckle.

We hadn't been speaking much. I can't sleep nor eat. I knew something was wrong. He can't look me in the eye anymore. He made me quit Hockey stating that he doesn't want me to get hurt anymore. But i know theres much more to that story. No one can just ask someone to walk away from there passion. With out hockey I'm lost. With out Isaac I'm hurting.

I look up at Isaac cutting strips of his chicken while still having my head on my knuckle. I straighten up and look at him.

"Isaac, if this is about Jake..."

"Why would this be about Jake, he's my best friend and I know he wouldn't betray me by going for you."

"Then why are you ignoring me?! Isaac I deserve an answer."

He continued eating his meal.

I wiped my lips threw money on the table along with the white napkin that now had my lipstick stain along with tomato sauce on it. I slammed my seat back grabbed my coat and left.

"Kelsey" He called.

I couldn't take it anymore. Small spheres of water rolled down my face as lips began to quiver. I reached my hands out pushing the door with all my strength to get out. I let out a sigh in the cold Minnesota Air causing a puff of cloud to form.

I heard the door slam. With out looking back I said "Were not going to work are we?"

I turned to face Isaac. He opened his mouth to let out a sigh while still shaking his head left to right slowly still deciding on an answer.

"I thought so." I said. I turned back to face the road with the street lights so bright it caused my eyes to squint resulting in more tears spewing out. I wiped my tears as I felt arms wrapped around my waist. I latched on to them.

"Kelsey, I'm sorry. I didn't mean for it to happen like this nor did I mean to upset you." Isaac said as the grip of his arms loosened, no longer making me feel secure as I did when he first hugged me.

I let go of his arms and turned to face his face.

"Kelsey, with you still here in Minnesota and me in Boston. I don't see how we can make this work. I love you. You know that." Isaac said.

"I love you too. So much it hurts." I said. Tears started to form and every blink caused another sphere to roll down my face. Isaac turned away. Not to be rude. But to prevent him self from seeing me cry because he hates to see me upset.

"I want to move on with life. Get married. Someday start a family. But not in Minnesota. Come with me to Boston." Isaac said holding my two hands.

"And what. Leave my parents here?! Live where?! Your dorm?!"

"Kels-" he started to say. I interrupted.

"My life is in Minnesota Isaac. I can't just leave." I stated.

He looked at me and cupped my face. In my mind i was hoping he would say that he would stay. But i prepared myself for the worst.

"We both want different things Kelsey. I respect your decision and I will not force you to do anything. But I hope you will respect my decision to move to Boston."

I nodded my head and took my left hand out of my pocket. Admiring the ring one last time as i proceeded to slide the ring off my finger. Isaac stopped me. I looked up at him.

"Keep it. As a reminder that you are my best friend and how privileged I was to witness a beautiful, kind and intelligent girl like you blossom in the the woman that you've became. I will always love you Kels." He pulled me in to one last embrace.

I took in his last scent and whispered "I love you too." So softly enough for him to hear. He pulled away as we start walking opposite directions.

I will always mark this day as the day that he got away.