Him (BoyxBoy)

Chapter Four- My Feelings For Dakota

Lately I've been asking myself a lot of, "Why do I like Dakota?" This has been bugging me for the past few days now and it's kind of driving me insane. I dwelled on this last month. I've known Dakota forever since we were in diapers. Ever since the... the incident had happened, he was always that for me. He was caring and ever since then everything changed. Dakota was there that day and a few days afterwards to comfort me. He never left my sight. The way he acted towards me makes me feel so different. Like special. And I felt different about him. He always made sure I was safe and secure than that I was okay.

I mean, I was five when that happened, and I still remember it like it had just happened seconds ago. Even at a young age I knew that I was gay. Or at least I had thoughts of it. I had never mentioned it to anyone beside those who I trusted at school that are close to me. You can say I officially came out the closet recently. Dakota is the only person who comes really close to family and was accepted to go everywhere with us. People I grew up with in elementary and middle school are also considered to be my family, but my second family.

Over the years of being best friends, even bros, he's been extremely close to me; and he's very special to me and is part of me. I've really gotten close to him. Dakota is a one of a kind person. He's someone I wouldn't mind being with. He's so sweet and the nicest person I've ever met in my entire life. He's too caring for people and it's amazing. He's so fucking adorable! It's unbelievable. I just want to squeeze him and hug him and hold him in my arms all day. OKAY CALM DOWN BRAD! It's just that his cuteness gets to me and I can't keep it inside. It's like I have to explode with my happiness containing rainbows and glitter whenever I'm around him or think about him. Not in an erotic way. I don't think about that stuff.

So... yeah, he's my little angel from heaven here to keep my little soul happy and in peace. Everything about him is so perfect, we get along so well. Dak is so adorable it's like I can never get mad at whatever he does wrong to me. I think that could be bad but he never does anything bad. He's literally an angel. I love everything about him. The way he... OH MY GOD I JUST SAID I LOVE HIM! I can't believe I just said that. What is wrong with me?!

I walked down the stair in the dark hallway into the somewhat dark living room. The sun was starting to set and the only thing coming through the windows was a combo or orange and pink peering through from the sun. The living room was filled with those colors yet somehow still seemed dark inside. I opened the fridge and realized that there was almost little to nothing to drink or eat. Thankfully my grandmother is coming home with Chinese food and hopefully some more sweet tea. I really love Chinese food. I love all types of foods actually, normal foods that humans eat; let me throw that out there. I poured some Red Diamond sweet tea from the gallon into a nice glass cup, took a coaster and headed up stairs to my room. Once I got back up there I laid softly onto my bed placing the cup on my nightstand. I grabbed my body pillow and cuddled against it. Well, it's not really a body pillow like you think. It's longer than your average pillow u sleep with but it's shorter than a body pillow. Anyway I hugged my pillow in bed like I was earlier and began to calm myself from what I had said.

Thinking back to what I did said I think I actually meant it. I don't know. I was pretty tired from the already long week of school so I just laid there in my comfy bed. As I was saying before I got off topic, again, Dakota is the most adorable boy ever. Everything about him is perfect; his nice body, his eyes, and his nice black hair. Dak's eyes are probably the best eyes ever. They're nice and blue and SO beautiful. Every time I look at him in the eyes when we talk or just in general I get lost. Usually blue eyes don't go good with black hair, but it does for him. I'm not sure; I've never seen anyone with black hair and blue eyes. And Dakota's black hair is so soft. It doesn't have much of a flip but it's still nice looking. One time I ran my figures through his hair and it was like a nice fluffy cloud.