Sweet Violette

Chapter 10

Jakes P.O.V

Her tiny hand met my face and I felt no pain. She seemed to have put a lot of energy in though.

I was upset at myself for telling her those things. they were all fucking lies. It just felt so demeaning to be rejected...by her.

I read her diary, and she did have it rough, but I could have at least help her, and there she was rejecting me, like she was a queen and I was the pauper.

I looked at her intently then my face softened as tears ran down her cheeks. 'tracy,' I walked towards her. Her face was pale and she just stared at me as if I were some criminal who had promised her death. ' Get away from me,' she pleaded. 'you are in my room,' I reminded her.

' why would you lead me on like that then break me...why do you live to hurt girls, what did I even do to you,' she was sobbing and i held back the urge to hug her.

' I don't live to hurt girls,' I defended myself. ' You read my fucking diary yet you act so cruel...since you know so fucking much about me why don't you just fuck me up...yea jake ...got any drugs to put me to sleep...then you can kill me afterwards...hide my body in that heap of clothes...or your daddy can pay your way out of jail maybe,' she mocked.

' i don't want to hurt you,' I looked down at the pile of trash instead of her tear stained face. ' Shut the fuck up ...don't wanna hurt me...so what the hell have you just done...i'm hard to want, for real though...I know that you asshole...its no point in repeating my thoughts,' she sounded drunk.

' Look...I..I,' I stuttered. I wanted to apologize and give her the kisses that I knew she needed but my pride kept me from doing so. ' you what Jake?' she looked at me in disgust.

' I'm sorry...okay? I felt low because you rejected me and my pride and ego got the best of me, ' i found the courage and said.

' That makes no sense, your words have already struck me...and there's no getting back up,' she mumbled over her tears. ' Can we just start over?' I asked her.

' Am i hard to want?' she inquired softly. I put my arms around her waist and looked straight into her beautiful eyes. ' To be honest, you are beautiful, and I'm so sorry that I said any of these things...I admit that I am cocky with an anger problem, but I can make it up to you, I don't want you to think that I want girls as objects ..cause I don't,' I was barely audible but she nodded.

' If you say yes to being my girlfriend, maybe I can help you fight through all your problems,' I placed my hand on her face and planted a kiss on her cheek. ' I'll be there for you,' I assured her.

She looked at me with a slight smile. ' How did all this just happen...one time i'm thinking you're a total jackass and now i'm considering saying yes to being your girlfriend,' she smirked.

' Cause love is complicated,' I tried to sound cheesy...it worked. ' Um..yea, I guess we can start over,' she stated. ' that sounds great,' I let go of her and motioned her to seat on my bed.

' so i read your diary, and I'm really sorry that you had to go through all this torture in life. I'm truly sorry,' I said to her as she sat.

' i'm trying to let go of all the emotional pain which i feel,' she replied softly. ' i'm not really the consoling type but I think I've got this; babe I got you,' I smirked.

' that's your advice,' she giggled and I registered the way she smiled.  'all i've got,' i repted lied and cupped her chin.

* Hey guys I'm sorry that it has been two months since my last update. Happy New Year to you. I hope that all is well. I double updated ( although I promised a triple upd8). Anyway I love you guys, hope you haven't given up on Sweet Violette because I have a lot planned for this story. Thanks for your time. enjoy your day :)*