Those four words

Did he know?!?

Ok guys so I am really sorry if this chapter is crap but right now I am running on no sleep due to having my 4 month old niece to take care of because her mother left to go do drugs and drink instead of being a mom.  Hope you guys understand and if you find any grammar mistakes please let me know.

p.s. in the story a * will be kind of like a dark part of Sara that she made when she thought she lost Taeyang....

Sara p.o.v

We were on our back home walking hand and hand when I felt G.D. pushing through my mental barrier at the exact moment that I could feel his emotions clouding mine.

Dont come back yet

Why?

Because I said not to!

G Tell me why 

No

Thats an order from your luna now tell me why we cant come back

One of Taeyangs exes are here

Ok and how did she know where he was staying?

His mom told her

Why?

B-Because.....

Because why!?!?

She's Pregnant with Taeyang's baby.....

No I shook my head trying to get them to stop repeating as I slowed down placing my free hand against my forehead as tears started to slip out of the corners of my eyes.

It's not true.  It's not true.  It's not true.

I blocked G.D. out completely before a panic attack hit me full force.

*He is going to leave you for her*

*No he won't he loves me*

*He pities you*

*No your wrong*

*I'm right and you know it when he finds out shes pregnant he will walk away from your broken pathetic self and walk with her into the sunset and live out the rest of his life happy with something for her that will will never have for you...*

*SHUT UP!!!*

I clutched my head with both hands oblivious to the shaking and shouting Taeyang was directing towards me.

*No you made me now deal with the consequence of the truth I give you...*

*It all lies he-he loves me*

*You know who is right*

I felt a stabbing pain in my heart as I let out a strangled cry my voice sticking in my throat.

*Turn it off*

*No I wont do that to him he loves me*

*Turn off your feelings or I will force it*

With that thought I did it.  I flicked the switch inside of my and it all stopped.  I felt so much better.

*Good girl...Now walk away from him*

I mentally nodded as I stood up ignoring him calling my name as he followed me.  I could feel G.D. trying to push through my barrier again and this time I let him in.

What?

Why did you do it?

Because I can 

With that I sighed happily as I finally broke through the tree line and was standing in the backyard of the house.  I walked up the back steps and into the kitchen grabbing a cold glass of water drinking it before Taeyang came crashing through the door.

¨What the hell is wrong with you?!¨ He shouted

¨You don't love me and we fixed it¨I said calmly

I watched as his face changed from one of anger to horror. 

¨N-N-NO.P-Please tell me y-you d-d-didn't p-please you c-can't leave me I n-need you¨He choked out as he stumbled towards my reaching to pull me into his embrace but was a second to slow as I was already leaving the kitchen.  I walked into the living room seeing the reason for this.  I remember when he was with her.  She had beautiful brown and auburn colored hair and had looks that mine could never compare to even with the baby bump she has.  I stood there thinking trying to remember her name but I was having trouble.

Taeyang froze on the spot as he saw her.

¨Minzy¨ We both said at the same time.  He moved forward towards her and I scoffed at the look on his face as I went up to my room the look he had sticking there and bothering me.

I started to pace my room aggravated and it made it even worse when I decided to go downstairs to get something to eat and he was sitting there laughing and holding her hands saying how happy he was.

As I walked past I leaned down towards his ear and whispered ¨Why are you so happy to see a filthy concubine Alpha?¨ I smirked at the shocked look he had until he stood abruptly telling her he would be right back as he started dragging my upstairs to his room slamming me against the wall as he let Jace come forward partially .

Flick the switch

¨No¨I said shaking my head.

¨Flick the damn switch now¨ He said turning on his alpha spirit making it impossible to refuse.  I reluctantly reached deep inside myself once again flicking the switch back on.

I gasped as I felt all of my emotions flooding back to me.  Love.  Hurt.  Betrayal.  

Taeyang reached forward crushing me against his chest as I sobbed ¨Y-y-y-your g-g-gonn-na l-lea-ave me f-f-fo-or h-h-er¨  I hiccuped 

¨No i'm not baby I love you forever you are the most precious thing to me and a chick I had a one night stand with that is pregnant is not going to change that because my heart belongs to you and you only until you have my pups inside of you because I will always love any part of you big nor small matters to me at this point.  I love you¨  He said placing a kiss to my forehead now that his words had calmed me and he led me over to the bed placing me in it and telling me to get some sleep and with that he left the room and I let sleep consume me almost immediately.

The last thought going through my head was 

Did he know?