Those four words

Is This The End?

Edited 1\11\16

Picture of Sara~

~Flashback~

I have a friend who grew up with me. His name is Taeyang. I always thought of him as a friend

until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him. Before that

trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of

lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl...

"Oppa, do you want to go watch a movie?" I asked.

"I can't"

"Why? You need to study at home?" I felt disappointment grabbing me.

"No... I am going to meet a friend..."

He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word 'love' only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say 'I love you' before. To us, there weren't any anniversaries at all. He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days...200 days... everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don't know why...

Then one day...

Me: Um, oppa, I ...

Taeyang: What?...don't drag, just say..

Me: I love you.

Taeyang: ......you....um, just take this doll and go home.

That was how he ignored my three words without saying the 'four words' I yearned to hear in return and then he handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many...

Then one day came, my 19th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But... lunch passed, dinner passed... and soon the sky was dark... he still didn't call. It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.

Me: Tae...

Taeyang: Here...take this...

Again, he handed me a little doll.

Me: What's this?

Taeyang: I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I'm going home now, bye.

Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?

Taeyang: Today? Huh?

I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen. Then I shouted... "Wait..."

Taeyang: You have something to say?

Me: Tell me, tell me you love me...

Taeyang: What?!

Me: Tell me

I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left.