Over rated love

But to me it was so real

It's was the beginning of January around the seventh to be exactly. I had a deep crush on this guy named Josh. We talked and talked every night and every day and we grew so closer to each other every day. One day he finally had the nerve to ask me to be his girlfriend, well to be honest this was my first relationship, so of course I was shy and didn't really talk much. But he didn't care, he knew how I felt about him. Hearing his voice would make my heart melt. feeling his touch against my skin would be like poison soaking in threw my skin into my veins. He was so kind and so sweet like a fresh red rose but we all know that every rose has its thorns. After a few month my crush started to turn deeper and I feel in love with everything about him. His voice when he sung to me as I was laying down in bed and him being overly protective. I loved his sleepy voice and the way he made me feel. Everybody says that it wasn't love but who really knows what love is. To me true love is never having to say sorry.

It was August the sixth which was a day before Josh's birthday and our sixth month anniversary. I didn't have a lot of money but I saved up enough money to by him and I a matching couples bracelet that one says "his" and one says "hers". I just got home from school  and went into my bedroom to rest from a long hard day. I was dying to let josh have his birthday/anniversary  present. But then he did something unusual. He sent me a text that said "hey Savannah?". You might be asking yourself why is that so weird but the thing is he never addressed me by my name, it was either babe or Vanna, and that's how I knew something was up. I texted back really fast as my heart was beating out of my chest. Then there it was, a text saying the sentence I never wanted to hear from him "I think we need to be friends". My heart just stop like it couldn't beat anymore. Hot tears started to roll off my checks onto my phone screen. He was still texting reasons why like "you deserve better than me" or "my family is going threw some stuff and I don't want you to have to deal with it too", but the saddest thing is that I didn't deserve him, he made me feel like I was worth something. If I had him I felt like I was okay and then the last thing he texted me that day was "I'm sorry for everything" and I felt like my world was over with. Then it popped in my head "true love is when you don't have to say sorry". This is when I stopped caring about anything and everything.