Endangered

Chapter 13

I woke up in my new 'room". Of course Carson wouldn't take me to a hospital or even stay near me for that matter. I got up and used the bathroom before I raided my fridge. I mentally locked the door as I ate the ice cream with a spoon I thought up. I imagined up a flat screen TV and turned on the movie 'The Maze Runner'. I was enjoying the movie until I heard knocking on my door. "Vanessa, it's Shawn, can you open up?" He asked. I rolled my eyes and ignored him. I continued to watch the movie until someone else knocked. "Vanessa, if you're up can you open the door for me?" Ethan asked. Yeah I know he has been the nicest to me but I just need alone time right now. Especially after the whole Carson episode. Silent tears rolled down my cheeks just thinking about it. "Carson's sorry," Eric tried to reason. I put a soundproof border around my room and suddenly the voices stopped. I finished the movie and ice cream. I took a shower and got dress in undergarments with a pink T-shirt and baby blue shorts. I pulled my hair into a fishtailed braid and sat on my bed. Poochie whined to be let out so I imagined us out side and poof we were there. After she got done using the bathroom I thought us back into my room and gave her, her food and water bowls. "Vanessa open the door!" Tyler said, sounding close to panicked. I must have accidentally let the soundproof border slip when I took Pooch to use the bathroom. Oh well, no use in putting it back up. Sitting on my bed I thought about my life before the guys came into it. Sure it wasn't great but it wasn't that bad either. Suddenly my fathers death flashed through my mind. It caused me to gasp and tears roll down my cheeks. Maybe Carson is right, maybe I am a baby who always cries and a drama queen. I couldn't handle my thoughts anymore so I walked into the bathroom and picked up a razor. I broke it and took out the blade. I made about six cuts in my wrist before the blade was snatched from my fingers. I looked up to see seven sad guys. Carson was probably off in his own little world forgetting about me. I looked at Shane and growled," How did you get in? And give me that back its mine!!" He looked upset as he said," Me broke the door down. Why Ness? Why would you do it again?" I couldn't handle it, I broke down right then and there. The tears flowing from my eyes wouldn't stop and I had to tell myself to breathe. Ethan picked me up and carried me to my bed as Eric cleaned the cuts. "Carson get your a$$ up here!!" Garrett yelled. I sobbed even more knowing very well he doesn't care anymore. Whether we are mates or not he seemed to give up. So why can't I? Why won't the guys let me stop living? "What?!" Carson snapped as he came up the steps. "Look what you did! You made the poor girl suicidal!!" Shawn yelled as Eric tried to wrap up my cuts. I felt a hand on my cheek as I stared into Carson's eyes. "Stop doing this to yourself, please," he pleaded with tears in his eyes. "Why? You don't seem to care about me anymore and I surely don't so why can't I just leave this place we call Earth?!" I asked my voice cracking in places. "I do care about you and that's why I act the way I do!! To keep you safe!" Carson explained as my mind told me to continue breathing. I saw Tyler walking out of my bathroom with all my razors. "You know very well what she can do and that's not going to stop her!!" Caleb growled. "We will have to keep an eye on her." Shane stated. I curled into Carson and fell asleep to him stroking my cheek gently. I woke up to find me in Carson's bedroom and him by my side. "Poochie!" I exclaimed and then looked down to find her sound asleep in her own bed. I sighed in relief before falling back onto the bed beside Carson. "Hey babe," he said kissing my cheek. I smiled and said, "Hiya!" We climbed out of bed and my wrist started to throb. I winced slightly and held my wrist. Of course Carson noticed though so he kissed my wrist and then threw me on his back. He took us downstairs and asked Eric what we were having for lunch. I grabbed an apple and said," I will just eat this, I'm not feeling to good." They nodded and I skipped back to Carson's room and picked up Poochie. I did our routine and then put down on the ground. I laid down across Shawn, Garrett and Shane who were sitting in the couch. "I'm bored!" I whined they rolled their eyes as Shane checked my wrist. "Let's go play laser tag! And no one uses powers!" I smirked. Oh this shall be fun! Mwahahaha, I didn't do that okay?! Okay.