Hopeless (Larina fan fiction)

Chapter 1

I walked through the streets of London humming "Heart-Shaped Box" a few guys I passed said things to me. Some girls gave me rude looks, and others smiled at me. I decided to go to a cafe I'd been hearing about, it was called the Starlight Lounge. I thought the name was funny, but I heard that on Thursdays they let artists perform there and I wanted to see what it was about. As I walked in, there was an artist who was about to start, "I am Marina and the Diamonds, and I'm here to perform for all you lovely people." she laughed nervously. She was short, but she had an amazing figure. She had an adorable face and she smiled in my direction. She began to play piano and sing, I had to admit, she had an amazing range. After a few songs she finished and she got off of the stage. I made my way over to her, "Wow, you're an amazing singer."

She looked up, well, she was actually way shorter than me she barely came past my breasts, "Oh thank you love, you're so sweet." she smiled at me.

"I'm Lana, by the way." I reached out my hand.

"Marina," she shook my hand, "But hey Lana I have to go, so can I maybe have your number?"

"Yeah sure." I took a sharpie out of my purse, "May I?" I grabbed her hand and wrote down my number.

She looked surprised but smiled and waved a goodbye to me before packing up her stuff and leaving.

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I thought about that American girl I'd met today after my performance. She was actually stunning, I should invite her over, we could have a sleep over or something. I laughed at the thought of two grown women having a slumber party. I looked at the number on my hand then dialed it.

"Hello?" I heard her murmur over the line.

"Hey Lana, it's Marina."

"Oh hey Marina." She sounded excited.

"I was wondering if maybe you want to come sleep over? I have a bunch of movies and snacks."

"Really? Yeah I'd love that, just text me your address and I'll be over in a half hour."

"Okay seeya then." I hung up then texted her the address.

I went to the kitchen and grabbed some snacks, bringing them and sitting them on the coffee table. I heard a knock on the door, I went to open it and there stood Lana, she smiled at me cutely.

"Hey Lana." I hugged her and she came in with an overnight bag.

"Wow, your place is nice." she looked around as she came inside.

"Thank you, well you can follow me to my bedroom so you can set your stuff down." She followed me to my bedroom. She set her stuff down and grabbed some clothes.

"I'm gonna go change in your bathroom."

"Why can't we just change here?" I couldn't believe I just said that to Lana, I felt my face growing hot.

"Oh..." Lana blushed, "I didn't think you'd be comfortable with it, so I thought-"

"No I'm fine with it!" I say a little too quickly.

"You sound a little perverted."

"I didn't mean it like that, go change in the bathroom-"

"It's fine." She laughed, taking off her shirt in front of me. She had on a black bra and I couldn't help but stare at her, she cleared her throat and I looked away, deciding to change myself.

I turned around and took off my shirt, I could feel Lana staring at me.

We had finally finished changing and walked into the living room, I couldn't help but look at Lana and how cute she is.

"So um, what movie do you wanna watch." Lana says quickly, noticing I was staring at her.

"Um, I dunno, whatever you want to watch." I look away embarrassed, "How about we watch Valley of the Dolls? It's one of my favorite movies."

Lana smiles, "Alright, sounds good." I swear she was checking me out as she said it.

"Lana what are you looking at?" I ask.

"Someone gorgeous." She bit her lip as she looked at me. She then busted out laughing and sat on the couch.

I turned pink, "R-really?" I sat down by her, but not very close.

"Yeah why wouldn't I look at you? I'd rather stare at you this whole time instead of watching a movie honestly."

I blushed even harder, "Lana, let's just watch a movie."

She sighed, "Fine." She folded her arms across her chest.

We started watching the movie and Lana kept glancing over at me, and I'd blush every time. Eventually I decided maybe some drinks would be a good idea, "You want some wine?" She nodded and I walked into the kitchen, I opened the fridge and there was vodka in the front. I decided to loosen up a bit so I took a few gulps out of the bottle then put it away, grabbing the wine. I poured us each a glass then went back into the living room.

I handed her the glass and she thanked me.

After a while of feeling the growing awkwardness between the both of us, I started to drink more and more. By the time the movie ended, I felt lightheaded. I looked over at Lana to see what she was doing. She was staring right at me. "M, you okay?"

"Um, yeah but I think we should sleep." I got up and tried to walk to my bedroom but I fell on the ground.

Lana appeared at my side, "Marina, you're drunk, here let me help you." she lifted me off of the ground and carried me to my bedroom. She gently laid me down.

She turned to walk away but I called her back, "Lana?"

She turned around, "Yeah?"

"Will you um, lay with me? Just for a while."

She smiled then came and laid by my, our arms slightly touching. The light left in the room from the lamp in the corner highlighted her eyes and made them glow.

"Why are you staring at me?" she mocked me, then let out a soft giggle.

I blushed, then suddenly Lana grabbed my face, "Lana what are you-"

"You have freckles." She stared at my face.

"Yeah..." I laughed, blushing and looking down.

"You're gorgeous, you know that?"

"No I'm not..." I tried to pull away, but then I felt lips on mine. Lana was kissing me. I sat there for a second but then I actually kissed back. Her lips were soft and gentle, she deepened the kiss and pulled me close to her. This felt so wrong, yet, I just wanted to keep doing it. She then put me under her and started touching my body, I grabbed her wrists and broke the kiss, "Lana."

"Yeah?" she looked me in the eyes.

"I-I've never done this." I looked away ashamed.

"Oh... you've never... oh. I'm sorry, I didn't know." She got off of me and laid next to me.

"I'm sorry Lana." I mumbled.

"Don't be M, it's okay." she pulled me close to her and kissed my forehead before we fell asleep together.