Remember- Adopted by Demi Lovato

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Demi

Things between Nick and I have been weird, and I hate it. I know we're supposed to be moving on and talking about it, but I don't know how to talk about it when I don't even understand why I said no. Nick has been there for me for practically everything, and is the best father to Mac she could ask for. Of course I wanted to spend my whole life with him but the idea of having that written down and legalized was so daunting for me. I didn't wan anything to change and I knew marriage would do just that. We'd be pressured into things and our talks would turn to children and I just wasn't ready for that kind of thing. I wanted to be able to enjoy being in love and having a family before I expanded it.

"Demi?"

I looked up from my blank phone screen to see Nick standing in the doorway, "Hey, are you coming to bed?"

He looked down, "I think I'm gonna take the guest bedroom."

My heart sank, "What? Why?"

Nick took a deep breath, "I just... I need a little bit of space."

I swallowed hard, "I can sleep in there. You should take the bed."

He shook his head, "No, you stay in here. I'll see you in the morning. Night."

"Goodnight... I love you."

"Love you too."

Once he shut the door I rubbed my face and soon the tears came, like they did most nights, hard and fast. An uncontrolled sob ripped through my chest and I clapped a hand over my mouth before any more sound could escape. I didn't want to sleep alone, I couldn't sleep alone. After about half an hour I got up and crept out, walking to the guest bedroom and peeking inside. Nick was lying on the bed, shirtless, his hands behind his head as he stared up at the ceiling but his eyes softened at the sight of me.

"What is it?"

I sniffled, "Can you come back? Or can I come in here? Please?"

"I don't know if that's a good idea Dems."

"Please?"

He sighed, "I can't."

I closed my eyes and swallowed hard, "Nick... I can't be alone right now."

His eyes snapped to my face, "What? What's going on?"

I twisted my fingers together, "I'm just not in a good place. We don't even have to talk or anything."

Nick closed his eyes, "Fine, come here."

I walked over and laid down, keeping space in-between us. I reached out my hand and found his but he pulled away a bit and I took a in a shaky breath. Eventually my breathing hitched and broke so it was obvious I was two seconds away from a mental breakdown.

Nick grabbed my waist suddenly and pulled me into his chest, letting me worm deeper into his arms, "Don't cry Demi, I didn't mean to make you cry. I'm sorry I'm just confused and I don't know what to feel. "

"I'm sorry." I blubbered, holding onto him tightly, "This is all my fault. I've ruined everything and now you want space which means we're already on the breakup road. I want to marry you Nick, I really do. I'm just so scared."

"What are you scared of?" He murmured, stroking my hair, "You have nothing to be afraid of, it's me baby. I won't hurt you."

"I know I just don't want things to change. I love how they are now and I don't want us to start letting the pressure getting to us. And the publicity of it all, I don't know how that'll affect us. I don't even know what I'm scared of except for the fact that I am utterly terrified of losing you and that fear has never been as intense as it was the past few weeks. I love you so much and I don't want you to think I don't just because I told you no. I want to be your wife and spend the rest of forever with you but it's just scary."

He cupped my cheeks, "I want you to remember something when you're scared okay? Remember when I stayed. Remember when I held you and comforted you, remember when I laughed with you and remember when I kissed you. Remember how much I love you and remember how you're my best friend in the entire world. Remember that I want you, and only you, to spend the rest of my life with. Remember that I want to make you the happiest woman in the world and by doing that makes me the happiest guy in the world. Remember that I don't care what everyone else thinks of says and I never will. Remember that I am Nick, and that I am completely in love with you. Remember me, remember you." He softly kissed me, "Remember us. Remember that we've got this. I want to marry you and spend the rest of my life with you, in sickness and in health, for better or for worse, to have and to hold. I want you. So... will you please just marry me already?"

I sniffled and leaned up, pressing our lips together for a long moment and finding everything I needed in the kiss to pull away for half a second before crashing my mouth back onto his.

"Yes."

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