Changing Mind

Chapter 21 - Back To The Past

hey guys! i might or might not making this chapter as the last chapter :x

hehe!

next chapter might be chapter 22 or an epilogue

finally im going to complete this story!

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| | Alexis POV | |

"Zayn, can I talk with Alexis alone for a while?" Luke asked.

Zayn shrugged, "You okay with this, honey?" He asked me.

I nodded my head slowly. Zayn wiped off my tears and kissed my forehead before leaving me all alone with Luke.

Luke made his way and took a seat beside me.

"Hi, I guess." He started.

"Hey." I gulped.

I'm not ready to confront him. Everything felt so wrong.

Approximately an hour ago, I was yelling at him. And now, here I am talking to him.

"I want to apologize. I'm sorry for everything, Lexi. I shouldn't have ran away. I shouldn't have left you. Hell, I shouldn't have like you. You're my sister for God's sake." He spoke.

I let out a sighed. "You sure shouldn't have."

"I'm sorry." He plead.

"You should be."

"You can hate me, Lexi. But please, don't hate the boys. They didn't know anything. Please forgive them." Luke reached out for my hand.

I tensed, "Don't touch me." Luke hesitantly pulled his hand away.

"You hurt me, Luke. You have no idea how broken I am. I lost my father and I thought you could make me happy. But no. You prove it wrong. You've lost me long time ago, Luke." I said.

Luke let out a long sighed. I knew I was making things harder -for Luke, the boys and I, myself.

But like I said, I was broken.

I can't be fix.

"What can I do to make things right?" He sighed.

What can he do?

Everything has happened. My heart already breaking. He broke my trust. He separated me from the boys.

What can he do to make things right?

Of course there's one thing he can do to make things right.

"I want my normal life back." I said.

Luke tried to protest but I stop him, "I'm not finish. I want my normal life back, Luke. And it doesn't matter if I have to live alone. I don't need dad. I don't the the boys. I don't need Eleanor and Perrie. I don't need Harry. I don't need you." I added.

"I'll be in my college year in three week less. I'm not going to tell any of you guys to which college I go. In this short three weeks I have, I'll settle everything. Especially, things with Harry." I told him my plan.

"I haven't talk to Harry yet but I will soon. I really do love him. But he's not in my past. He have future in front of him. I can't be selfish and snatch it away from him so I can live happily ever after with him." I said.

The words left my mouth spontaneously but as my ears hear what my mouth speaks, my heart immediately liking the idea.

And now, I hundred percent sure that moving from the present is the best decision.

Luke frowned, "You can't just delete us from your life."

"Sometimes some things are meant to be deleted."

Three days later ∆∆∆∆

Harry smiled as he stroke my cheek. I used to love the way he smiles when he look at me.

But now, I feel pain.

Pain because I knew I'm not going to see his smile again.

Pain because I am no longer the reason of his smile.

"Harry, we need to talk." I started. Harry chuckled, "We are talking, love."

I suck in a deep breath before slowly exhaling it. "I don't think this relationship are working." I said and of course both of us knew it was a lie.

Everything was perfectly fine.

"Why?" Harry frowned. He didn't even try to hide his disappointment.

"Because it is not working."

My mouth felt dry. It feels like I just swallow a bucket of sand. I hate myself for doing this. I hate myself for breaking Harry's heart.

"I don't think it is not working." He said.

By now, Harry already facing me. His face shows everything; confusion, disappointment, upset, and mostly hurt.

Confusion because all of this was out of sudden. Disappointment because I broke the promise that we made -to stay together forever. Upset because he knew I was determine to leave. Hurt because I'm leaving him.

"You might think it's working. But not me. We are going to be apart soon. I will not be there for you and you're not going to be there for me. Four years, Harry. Four years." I said.

"For four whole years, I will be busy with college and same thing goes to you. Tour, new album, fan meeting." I added.

Harry furrowed his eyebrows. "We can try long distance relationship or whatever method as long as we could. I belive we make it through that way."

I shook my head no.

"It is not as easy as you think, Harry. People will write everything about us. You might hear a rumors about me and I might hear a rumors about you. And the worst part is we can't meet each other and talk through it. I can't calmly explain to you -on the phone, that all of it is just a rumors." I said.

"There will be a trust issues, Harry." I added.

I locked his hand in mine as my thumb stroke his hand.

"I will miss everything. But this is the best. If you could wait for me for four years, then we will see what the future hold for us." I smiled.

Harry wipe his tears roughly. I knew he didn't like the idea of breaking up one bit.

But I have to.

We have to.

"I thought you want to be by my side forever." He whispered.

I nodded, "I wanted to."

"I hope you won't hate me after this. We could still be friend, you know."

"We're friends, now?" Harry let out a sighed.

I nodded, "Just friend."

"Before that, can I do one thing?" He looked at me in the eyes.

Before I could reply, Harry kissed me on the lips making me almost regret my decision.

Almost.