starts with good bye

On a road trip

Everyone was asleep that I knew of so I get up found my old Friends and went to the toilet to use them the only thing I could think about was lexi and how she couldn' be here if she was she would be here I pulled out the blade and ran it across my skin only to have Alex walk in and take all the bales and tack me to his bed I fell asleep in his arms the place I fealt most relaxed I woke up to jack freaking out that we had sex of something on the frist night of tour "jack nothing like that would happen I was in a bad space and needed some one to hug and Alex was awake and his is my boyfriend so what would be so bad" I said wile staring at him " okay " he said after being poised off that I woke every one up "I want frist shower" I said as I rolled out if Alex's bunk grabbed my shower stuff and went to shower when I came out some people need to pee so I warped my towel around me and went to my bunk bed on the way I Hurd some one say "she really hot in nothing but a towel" jack said " does everyone forget she's is my baby sister"all I could do was laugh I was getting dressed as Alex came looking for me I was only in my bra and undies but I knew he wouldn't mind "I'm in my bunk" I said then he started to climb up " are you decent" he said wile touching the Curtin "kinda" I said "can I come in" he said "yes" I said back we opened the Curtin and moved so that he was sitting on my bunk with my wile I got changed I put on some skinny jeans and a half top with long sleeves "we will talk about last night later but right now we need to practice for tonight if that okay" "yes it is just pleases don't tell the others" I Said and I moved closer to kiss him it got deeper and deeper until he was laying on top of me fully makingout I could feel his boge getting bigger then jack yelled " guys and kayla we need to practice that ruined it then my Curtin openedaz and Alex bit my lip playfully an pulled away "your so lucky it was me that opens the Curtin rather that jack" zack said to the both of us wile Alex helped me Down. Walk down to the lounge where I sat on the couch wile the boys Patrice then Alex asked me to come up and sing with him so I do jack hands me a microphone and all the boys sit down as Alex starts to sing Rembrandt Sunday and as it gets to jutlett part I close my eyes and sing it I was so happy to be singing it I opened my eyes and looked at Alex and couldn't stop until my but was over and it felt great I can't wait to go out tonight and sing in front of there fans not knowing if they will like me or not I hope they do I mean they should al ready know who I am bacouse I'm jacks sister and I was lexi best friend "heads up boys we r on in 20 mins hope ur all ready" flyzik say looking at me I get up and go put on lore make up and change in to skinny jeans and a half top then Alex's says "baby are u ready?" Near the bathroom and I walk out to have him grab my hand and walk in to the venue with me we walked past some fans and they just look at our hand others said yes about loud that put a smile on my face and I kenw it would be a good show the boys played for a bit and then Alex came and got his acoustic guitar and went back on stage sorry guys Juliet won't be here for her part tonight but I might have some one else her to sing it they her just went in to Rembring Sunday he got to near my part and I got pushed in to the stage so I started singing I closed my eyes and just sung until it was over non of the fan had Eva seen my cry and at then end of my part that's what I did I started to cry then Alex hugged me and said " baby I know things don't seem right at the moment but they will be soon" and all the fans awwwd I went off stage and as I did jack hugged me then went to finsh the set I went back to the but to watch the slide show of me and lexi photos trying to work out what was so bad she need to kill her self