starts with good bye

tour time :)

we sat at a nice big table and ordered food while me and amber showed off our new tattoo we ate and went home in the cars we came in Alex's house and i went to my room while the other said good bye to everyone that didn't live here is was staying here i got into my pjs and put on peter pan alex's favorite movie and sat on the couch and watched some how i fall asleep.

i woke up in my bed and no one was is my room with me it was kinds scary how i woke up in my room when thought i fall asleep in alex's arms. my day was going to be filled with band practiced and talking because the boy are going on tour and i will hopefully get to go with them for two months but i will just continue and not care that they haven't asked my to go with them yet it the weekend and i have nothing to do so i go to the basement and watch their practice "hey guys do you want anything to drink" i yell down to them i get some yes so i carry down a six pack of coke and sat on the couch while they played lost in stereo i just jumped around and sang some of the words i knew alex yell remembering sunday and looked at me and pointed so i grabbed jacks mic when it got to juliet part I'm not coming back, I've done something so terrible I'm terrified to speak, but you'd expect that from me I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt; now the rain is Washing you out of my hair and out of my mind Keeping an eye on the world So many thousands of feet off the ground I'm over you now I'm at home in the clouds Towering over your head

i finished and alex ended the song and before anyone could talk to me i ran up stairs i heard someone following me to the kitchen " you sound amazing you should come on tour with us and sing that every time we perform it"alex said hugging "i would love to but have you asked jack?" i ask him hugging him back he went down stars and i went up to my room i fealt tiared or was i getting depresed i dont know ill just go to my room and watch movies and sleep becouse that all i ever seem to do now maby going on tour with all time low will make me a bit happer and maby ill find my happnice in someone new not tha want to replace lexi it just i need to get over the fact that she killed her self becouse she thought it was the only way out but it would not have been i could have bought her out of her dark place and in to a better place but no she had to go and kill her self not thinking that evey on would miss her i miss her so much and i think alex dose to i just dont know how to talk to him about but I don't know how to or wether of not I should but I'm just going to watch Netflix and sleep for now so I grab out my lap top and lay on my bed watching pretty little liars because it one of my favourite TV shows I watch like 3/4 episodes and fall asleep.

I wake up in Alex's arms I wonder how then I get out off my bed and go to the bathroom and find my make up all over my face "Alex what happened last night" I ask him after I wake him up " baby you wore screaming, crying and kicking in your sleep and I dident want u to wake the naubours to I came in an cuddled you and you seemed to stop" Alex says wile I get back in to my bed " what was I yelling about?" I ask Alex " you wore yelling lexi don't be so stupid I can help you please stay and that when I came in to find you asleep so I cuddled you and you stopped yelling and crying and then I woke up to you to asking me questions so that was my night" Alex said wile getting out of my bed I think he's going back to his room " hey lex?" I ask him "yes baby" he said back " do you miss lexi or should I just not be asking" I say to him he just pulls me closer and says "yes" then i leave my room and walk down stars to find jack and Amber making breakfast in the kitchen "can i have some boo?" i asked amber "yes" amber said back to me pacing a plate of pancakes to me.