Random thoughts

Tears and Rain

I lay back on my bed thinking of why life is so unfair
I close my eyes trying to forget all what happened that day
Trying to think positively
Trying to convince myself everything's alright
Flying away in my imaginary wolrd
Where everyone's happy, where there's no need to fight
But then I go down to earth and reality hits me
Very hard this time that no one can save me
The worst moments of my life
just came in front of my eyes
And my attempts of forgetting and moving on
Were all in vain and now I know that my plans went all wrong
I can feel my heart thumping in my chest
As if struggling to get out of his nest
I can feel pain flowing in my vains
Visiting every part of my body along with black thoughts driving me insane
Then all of a sudden, something compared to magic just happened
I get up from my seat, head up to the window and see
Drops of water racing to land on the ground, my window and the trees
As I watch the rain flowing from the sky
I feel it washing away all the pain healing my injuries and telling me to survive
As I listen to the soft melody of the drops knocking delicately on the glass
I know it's reminding me of how beautiful life can be, if only we remember that there's Allah watching us,
Making sure we keep going in the right path
not forgetting that he's the one who can save us no matter how we're drowning deep
I now realise I was totally wrong
When thinking that I am struggling in this mean life all alone
Forgetting that the most powerful ever is always with me
Ready to help me and light up my dark nights by only believing in him and having faith
I open the window letting the fresh air enter my lungs
Filling my soul with joy and kicking away the grief and the black thoughts
Now I am free from my prison
Now I can breathe and I can laugh
Alhamduli'Allah for saving me always
And not letting me get lost in this maze called life.