Pernicious|h.s

Nine

          Valerie

It was the day after Christmas and Louis still had not returned from Emilia's, well really that was no surprise. I wasn't expecting him home whatsoever at this point in time. He could move into Emilia's for all I care, wait jokes I can't pay for this place by myself. 

But being honest I truly missed him. The fact that he did not clearly give a s.hit about me shattered my heart, more than any other boy ever has.

I let out a huff of frustration as I looked at Louis' presents that were scattered underneath the Christmas tree. Gathering them roughly, I wandered into his bedroom and chucked them next to his birthday presents. I laid down on his rather comfy-looking bed and cuddled into the blankets.

I stayed liked that for the next half an hour, my phone not shutting up within that time but I was not bothered to reach over to get it. Forcing myself out of Louis' bed, I re-made his bed and grabbed my phone as I walked out into the living room.

Looking at the Christmas decorations that filled the apartment, I decided it was time to un-christmasfy (A/N~this isn't even a word but oh well). I would normally pack away the Christmas decorations the day after New Years, but man oh man was Christmas a s.hit one for me this year. Louis' would probably not be happy with this but I really couldn't give two s.hits what Louis' thinks.

My attention turned to the sound of jingling keys unlocking the door, of f.ucking course. I knew I said I wanted him home and all but I was no way near ready to face him.

I quickly turned up the music I already had playing so I could briefly block out his voice as I continued disassembling the Christmas tree. 

"Welcome to my crib." I heard Louis speak. Who was he even speaking to? I swear to f.ucking god if it was Emilia I will have no hesitation jumping out the closest window, okay maybe not that extreme.

"This is so cute." I heard a female giggle. It was her. 

"Uh, hey Val." Louis spoke from behind me. I didn't waste my time turning around nor speaking. "Why are you taking down the Christmas decorations?"

This time I turned around, standing up and looking at him and Emilia. 

"Maybe because I don't want to be reminded of my most f.ucking fantastic Christmas. Really, thank you so much Louis." I spat, tears began to fill my eyes. I needed to get out of here.

"I'm so f.ucking sorry that I wanted to celebrate Christmas differently this year, and I didn't spend my birthday the way 'you' wanted. I don't want to feel guilty over f.ucking nothing, you are making this so much bigger than it actually is. Am I not allowed to spend time with my girlfriend? Who also happens to be the mother of my child, the mother of your niece or nephew. You know, I don't even know if I want you apart of my child's life if you're going to keep acting so f.ucking dramatic when things don't go your way. Like for pete's sake Valerie, don't you think it's time to grow up." Louis argued, clenching his fists and guiding Emilia into his room, slamming his door. 

I was trying to process Louis' words, he had never once blown up at me like that. He was the only thing I had really, but day by day I was slowly losing him. At this moment in time I needed a hug.

Quickly washing my face in the bathroom, I stopped in front of Louis' door on my way to the front door.

"Don't worry about her, she's just jealous she's not the only priority in my life anymore." Louis' muffled voice spoke, causing my heart to break nine-hundred million, six-hundred and seventy-six thousand, four-hundred and forty-five times more. (A/N~I hope I did that right)

Closing the front door behind me, I prayed that Liam was home. I got a glimpse of my reflection in the numbers that hung on the door. From what I could see my eyes were red and puffy, my skin was splotchy and my hair a frizzy mess. The door swung open, my eyes meeting with Harry's.

"Valerie, what happened?" He asked, his voice full of concern. Taking me by surprise as he engulfed me in a hug.

I was hesitant on whether to tell him or not, he probably didn't even want to hear about my troubles.

"Just stuff with my brother, I'm sure you heard the yelling." I mumbled, melting into his arms. 

"Come on love, you can tell me. I'm all ears." He spoke, unwrapping himself from me and intertwining his hand with mine, leading me into his apartment.

He sat me down on the couch, wrapping me in a blanket and sat down next to me.

After I briefly explained to Harry about Louis and whatnot, which took quite a while, I remembered why I actually came over.

"Ah, is Liam here?" I asked, lifting my head off his shoulder.

"Oh of course, you came here to see your 'boyfriend', my mistake. He's at work so you should probably come back tomorrow. I'm sure you can let yourself out." He said bluntly, his mood suddenly changing. He stood up and stormed into what I assumed was his bedroom, shutting the door behind him quite forcefully. 

I hurried out of his apartment, not really wanting to go back into mine but I didn't have much of a choice at this stage. Opening the door as quietly as possible, I hoped that Louis was in his room with Emilia so I wouldn't have to see him. I crept down the hall into my room and closed the door gently behind me. 

I changed into some pyjamas, deciding to shower in the morning. Turning off all the lights in my room, I threw myself on my bed and cuddled into the layers of blankets. It was only seven at night, I hadn't even eaten today but I just wanted sleep. Something I probably was not gonna get anytime soon considering Louis' words were trapped in my mind, swirling around.

A small part of me was believing what Louis had said, maybe he was right. Holy crap, why couldn't I just make up my mind. Maybe I finally understood Harry's sudden mood changes. Wait, who am I kidding? I'll never be able to understand him. 

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A/N

Hi friends,

I hope you all enjoyed this chapter, make sure to vote and comment please. Oh and I wanted to dedicate this chapter to crazythinking_, because she has already made my year with her lovely lovely comments and she is such a good writer like holy heck, go and check out her works. Oh and while you're checking out hers make sure to check out my wonderful munchkin's, smokeystyles, works. I love you all :) xx