Pernicious|h.s

Ten

     A/N

       Guess who's back, back again, Brook is back, tell a friend.

          Valerie

It was New Years day, it was just after midday and the streets were still lifeless, everyone too hungover from their celebrations of the new year. However, I was not among those who felt like they were on the verge of death. I spent my New Years Eve differently than previous years, I worked, spending the whole night watching the overly drunk conversing and dancing with one another. It's not like I had anything better to do, seeing as my 'brother' was too busy with his new life. Plus I could do with the extra money considering I now live on my own, it was a win-win situation for everyone. 

Louis in the past week had only made contact with me twice, it was a new record. Contact number 1 was him muttering a thank you for his presents, contact number 2 was passing on a message Dad had told him to. I nearly forgot the best part, Louis decided it would be best for Emilia to move in so they could be a cute little family, how sweet. I decided to give them as much room as possible for their new little family so I moved out, well when I say move out I mean moving to the one bedroom apartment directly above them. It was a win-win situation for me, I got to move away from both Louis and Harry. I have been here for a big 2 days, managing to settle myself in with only help from Maggie. 

In all honesty I don't even think Louis has acknowledged my absence and yes of course it hurts, him not even giving a damn s.hit about me and my whereabouts, he's my brother after all but you do you boo. I guess you could say sarcasm is my coping mechanism, without it I probably would have dumped Louis along with Emilia in the river already, bit of an exaggeration but you get what I mean. I think we could all come to the conclusion of that way too much has happened within the timeframe of a week, my whole life is a joke. Ha.

In the past week I have also managed to not come into contact with Harry, which I am somewhat thankful for. It's probably best for me anyway, as beautiful as he is he does not mean well. Why are boys so much trouble? Maybe I should just become lesbian, at this moment it seems like the easiest option for me to take.

My phone vibrates opposite of where I am sat on the couch, using all the energy I have left in me I reach over and grab it, groaning in the process.

Louis: 'Where are you? Are you at work?' 

'I moved out, thanks for being such a great brother and noticing.'

Louis: 'How selfish can one f.ucking be, here I am trying to be nice and all I get in return is being treated like s.hit. Stop being immature Valerie.'

'Welcome to how I've been feeling ever since you got a girl knocked up, but because you possibly can't be a bad person you've stuck around to be a 'good' father, congratulations and go f.uck yourself Louis.'

Louis: 'Get over yourself.'

I had no energy left to fight with Louis, it was a lost cause, I'd be wasting my time on something that would probably would make the situation worse. I threw my phone as far away from me as I possibly could without shattering it, even though another expense would make my day. I was furious, upset, a bit of both. I didn't even have to look in a mirror to know my face would look puffy and my eyes bloodshot, it's a look I've been loving lately. F.uck, f.uck, f.uck, when did things between us get so bad? I probably didn't chose the best words to say but it had to be said at one point. 

I decide to go for a walk to the park close by to get a clear head, I chuck on appropriate clothing and head to the elevator, grabbing my phone and purse on the way out. I was thankful for the streets of London to still be relatively empty considering the time of day. Quickly reaching the park, I found a spot under and tree and sat down, letting my body relax. I wrapped my arms tight around my body to contain warmth that was quickly escaping my body because I forgot to bring my coat, the year was already turning out to be great. 

I miss Louis, I miss the Louis before Emilia came along. In such a short space of time he's become a whole complete new person and I don't even know who he is anymore, he's a stranger to me. My brother broke my heart before any boy had the opportunity to. 

I felt a light sprinkle of rain on my skin, the rain slowly becoming heavier making me groan in frustration. I didn't move, I just closed my eyes and began to take deep breaths, trying to calm myself and focus on the sound of the rain. 

"Valerie?" A voice I clearly recognised spoke, startling me.

Of f.ucking course. 

     A/N

Guys, I am so so so so sorry for leaving you stranded, I honestly hate myself for it. But it's good to be back and I hope you enjoyed the chapter even though it was s.hit, I'm sorry. Please vote and comment, I love you all xxx