Last Tears

Chapter 30

God has mercifully ordered that the human brain works slowly; first the blow, hours afterwards the bruise.

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"Yes Maama I'm sure we didn't forget anything" I heard Akram reassure her over the phone which made me chuckle. "No..." Akram stood up from the airport bench. "We can handle it" he walked away probably not wanting me to hear the rest. I felt nervous as a couple walked past us with their little kid in the middle.

This was it. I was ready

It's been nine months since we got married and most couples here would already have a baby or one well underway but we hadn't spoken about it. It did occur to me more than once that maybe I was being unfair to my husband that he had to use protection so I wouldn't conceive. But then I'd selfishly placate myself with the fact that I never asked him to and he did it on his accord. But I knew he was being considerate, as he wasn't sure if I'd completely healed from how I lost Amir; healed enough to have another child.

So after working in my father in law's company for six months and saving enough; I decided to fly the both of us out for an overdue honeymoon. And there I'd talk to him about all of it.

"She still thinks we can't handle ourselves alone in a foreign country" he informed me as he sat back down next to me.

"Well she knows I can" I smiled, "It's probably her baby boy she's concerned about" I nudged his shoulder with mine

He smiled it off before saying "I still don't know why you insist on paying everything. You should save your money"

"What else would I want to use it on?" I smiled at him

"Makeup or something" he replied

"Well I would..." I smiled, "But my sister in law's got me covered. I want to do this"

He nodded and interlaced our hands. We sat there receiving more phone calls from family and friends; wishing us a safe trip until our flight to Paris was called.

I'm predictably romantic. Sue me.

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"What will I do alone for three hours?"

"Anything you want" I replied as I pushed his shoulders making him walk until he was out the door. "Live your dream. The world is at your feet"

"Why are you so eager to get rid of me?" his eyes narrowed in suspicion.

"I'm not" I laughed. "Just go do whatever you want. I'll meet you at the restaurant by 7" I smiled

He nodded and planted a chaste kiss on my lips before he sauntered off and I walked back into the suite after locking the door. I sat down and began arranging the scented candles on the floor without lighting them; I'd do that later.

When that task was over; I got into the bathroom where I took twenty minutes in ensuring everything was done perfectly. I then dressed in a black long sleeved maxi dress, coupled it with a brown sandal and brown clutch, I applied my makeup and fixed my veil before walking out the door. The restaurant wasn't very far and after seven minutes of a cab ride I got out right in front of it where I spotted Akram looking irked, slightly turned away from me. He tapped his phone screen before taking the device up to his ear. I looked down to see my phone ringing and just for amusement I answered it.

"What's up?"

"What's up? I thought we were supposed to meet here fifteen minutes ago" he glanced around as he spoke into the phone but he still didn't see me. Well that I was wearing black was contributing to his obliviousness. And then he looked worried as he asked. "Are you lost? Did something bad happen to you?" he asked as I slowly walked towards him. "I never liked this idea of separating in the first place" he murmured. "Just stay where you are I'll come find you"