Hold On To Me ☾cake au

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Luke dreamt late that night about Calum. It wasn't so much a dream, but a flashback in the form of a vivid dream. Luke and Calum were seated on the warm carpet of the beach house, drawing stupid pictures on each other's skin. The written words on Luke's neck kept flashing in his head, "I would leave with you."

Luke woke up shaking like crazy and clutching the sheets beneath him. His hands were trembling profusely and he felt like his lungs were shriveling up inside his chest. His eyes began to sting with tears and he breathed heavily as he got out of bed and put sweatpants and a plain t shirt on. He went to his window and opened it.

You've done this a million times. Don't fuck up now.

Struggling, Luke stepped on a branch of the tree beside his house and jumped not so swiftly onto the ledge of Calum's window. He pushed the window open and stepped inside Calum's dark bedroom, shutting the window behind him loud enough to wake Calum who sat up in his bed tiredly. The dark haired boy's expression completely changed when he realized Luke was shaking and breathing so hard.

Luke stood at the foot of Calum's bed, hugging himself and quivering so much, he wouldn't have been surprised if Calum could feel the floor vibrating. Tears spewed from Luke's eyes in sobs. He was having a panic attack.

"Luke, what's wrong?" Calum asked, his voice filled with worry but Luke continued to cry and struggle to breath. Calum stayed frozen in his spot, unsure of what to do to handle the situation. "Talk to me, Luke! What's going on?!"

"Touch me," Luke finally said between cries. The sobs in his voice were uncontrollable and worrying Calum to death, "please, Ca-lum, I need you to hold me please. Just touch me. I need to feel you touching me."

Calum rushed to the end of the bed and pulled Luke, mid sentence, on top of him to straddle him. Calum wrapped his arms protectively around him and pressed his forehead against Luke's as the younger boy hastily felt all over Calum's neck and cheeks with trembling hands as if not believing he was really there.

Luke continued to softly ramble things with his eyes clutched shut, breathing in Calum. "P-please Calum, please. I can't b-breathe when you're not with me. I can't. I can't live without you. I need you, Calum. I need you. I need you. I need you."

Luke kept repeating those three words as Calum grabbed Luke's face, rubbing his cheeks with his thumbs in attempt to calm him down. "Luke, hey, look," Calum said in a soft voice, "open your eyes. Look. Look at me."

Luke's pink eyelids opened and he looked into Calum's dark eyes filled with concern. "I'm here," Calum said, "do you feel me? I'm here, I'm holding you. I'm touching you, I'm right here."

Calum pressed quick kisses all over Luke's tear drenched face, "Just breathe, Luke. Please breathe, I'm right here. I'm yours."

Luke's breathing began to slow down and his shaking stopped. Calum placed a lingering kiss on Luke's lips and he could feel his world start spinning again as he felt Luke sigh against his lips.

Having been deprived of it for too long, Luke tilted his head, deepening the kiss. Calum slipped his tongue inside Luke's mouth, savoring the taste he'd been missing and craving for so long.

He held Luke's waist and gently lowered themselves onto his bed, resting between the blondes legs as he kissed him. Luke was addictive. He was like nicotine to Calum and Calum honestly could not comprehend how he'd gone so long without him. Calum quickly removed Luke's shirt along with his own and left hungry kisses below Luke's ear and on his neck.

Luke reached for the waistband of the older boy's shorts, pushing at them to signal he wanted them off. Calum did as told and kicked his shorts off while Luke struggled to do the same with his own. Both boys blushed at the feeling of being completely naked in front of each other in such an intimate way.

Luke pulled Calum closer to him, causing Luke to spread his legs more. Calum pulled away from Luke's lips and looked at him. "Are you sure?" He asked to the breathtaking boy beneath him.

Luke nodded slowly and gave Calum a chaste kiss before pulling away again. "I want you," Luke whispered.

Calum brought a finger to Luke's entrance and inserted it slowly, giving Luke enough time to adjust. Luke ushered for him to keep going and Calum inserted another finger. Luke squeezed Calum's shoulder and groaned, "hold still a second." A pained face set itself on Luke's flushed features. Calum kissed Luke to try to relax him until Luke said it was okay for Calum to move his fingers again. He added a final finger and Luke bit his lip at the feeling.

"I'm ready, now," Luke informed Calum and he removed his fingers.

Calum began rubbing himself, spreading his precum over his member as a form of lube. He aligned himself at Luke's entrance and halted. "It's um- it's gonna hurt," Calum pointed out.

Luke nodded, "I know, I can handle it. Just start off slow."

With that, Calum pushed slowly into Luke, making the younger boy yelp. Calum gave Luke a worried look and Luke knew what it meant as he replied, "I'm fine. Keep going."

Calum began to repeatedly push into Luke, slow enough for him to adjust to Calum's length but fast enough to fulfill Luke's wants.

The thrusting came to a steady pace. "More," Luke breathed out and Calum began thrusting faster and harder. Luke's nails dug into Calum's back as a stream of moans and Calum's name left his mouth.

With every movement Calum made, he felt like the skin in his stomach was ripping apart and a trillion stars were erupting out of it like a galaxy exploding within him. He could feel Luke's hair between his fingers and his muscles like hills under his soft skin against Calum's palms and it felt like the chains that were holding Calum's limbs together for weeks, were finally being taken apart and destroyed.

Calum lovingly brought Luke's hands over his head and intertwined their fingers, kissing him roughly. A certain sweet spot in Luke was suddenly hit and he tightened his grip on Calum's hands, biting the older boy's lip. Calum unglued one of his hands from Luke's and began pumping the younger boys throbbing length, eventually sending both of them to their highs as Calum collapsed beside Luke with a loud moan.

Calum pulled the covers over both of their bodies and tugged an incredibly flustered Luke close to him. Calum pressed lingering kisses everywhere he could without moving too much while Luke shivered at the feeling of his lips. Luke entangled their legs together and allowed Calum to do whatever he so desired to him.

Luke felt every possible human emotion while in Calum's arms. He felt safe, wanted, good. Calum lifted Luke's hand to his soft lips and kissed the tips of each of his fingers. Such a simple action was enough to send Luke's brain flying again. Everything that was Luke, revolved around Calum and he's never been more happy about anything than that. He wanted to be Calum's first priority. He wanted Calum to touch him like this and drive him crazy with his kisses that never failed to make Luke lightheaded. He wanted to belong to Calum.

Calum wanted nothing less than to make Luke his everything.

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...k

cringing so hard because i feel like that was awful

-cee :)