Okay, so this is going to be a short journal entry. Unfortunately I have a Cross Country meet tomorrow and I need to rest my aching body. I haven't been sleeping well lately, and this is kind of an excuse to get everyone off my back. I have mixed feelings about this meet if you can't already tell.
So today was a lot better. Tyler came to my locker in between passing periods and we got to talk alone for a little bit. We only have one class together and we don't really sit near each other, so we have to really work to see each other at school. We also have busy lives outside of school, and so we don't get to hang out as often as we would like. This adds to the issue of not knowing each other enough to be comfortable.
Anyways, Tyler is getting better at opening up to me. He is really good at masking his true feelings and thoughts; he lives his life with a wall up. Today he showed me a serious side filled with so many emotions I was immediately overwhelmed. I like that he felt comfortable enough to show me that side of him for a while. I just don't know what I am going to do if he opens up for a whole day. All of those emotions have to get tiring eventually. I can kind of see why he would live with a wall up. It is always easier to act uncaring than face all of the insecurity and fear.
After school I received a text from Tyler telling me that his friends don't want him to leave them and hang out with me. This is so 6th grade, like really? Grow up guys! Tomorrow I am going to tell him that he doesn't have to chose between me and his friends. It's not like I hate his friends or anything.
So the next subject for tonight is Rhi Braddy.
A short background, Rhi's mom went to high school with mine and they became best friends Freshman year. So they ended up staying best friends for 36 years and during that time they both had beautiful girls. Rhi and I are the same age and spent a lot of time together growing up. She and I have been best friends for our entire lives and we would never go back and change that. We have been there for each other through divorce, death, moving, and awkward fazes. She and I finally go to school together and it had only brought us closer. She and I are closer than sisters. We are practically the same person and, even though we don't look alike, everyone thinks we are twins.
Haha yeah, that is the short background!
Rhi told me last weekend that if I get a boyfriend, she is getting a boyfriend. She is currently moving on from her first boyfriend ever, Will Dressen. They dated for 3 months before she dumped him and broke both their hearts in the process. I don't think she is quite over Will yet. She is constantly complaining to me about how he is begging to get her back.
Wow, I am more tired than I thought I was, so I 'm going to bed for tonight. Until next time, peace!
