Ok, so I'm finally going to do it, I'm finally going to start a journal. I haven't successfully kept a journal in a very long time, so this should be interesting. Hopefully I can keep this one going until I run out of paper....digital paper...
Anyways, back to the point of having a journal; I've got some issues right now. I don't mean like normal (school sucks, acne, fat) issues, I mean like issues such as divorce, college, planning, and the occasional boy problem.
This crap is a lot to handle when I'm in honors and AP classes. So yeah, I am way behind. Thank the Lord for extra credit!!
First issue I want to cover is Tyler, because I'm texting him right now. I just really need to write out my feelings about him. So, since I broke up with him during Freshman year, he hasn't gotten over me. And since I am moving on from Chris Parker (not going to go through that story right now) Tyler is taking the opportunity to make his move, Wow, now I feel weird, I sound like a conceited person....ew...
Anywho, Tyler was going to ask me out last weekend, but I told him that we should probably wait until we are more than just friends. Which is a good idea, because he treats me like a friend, and if we were to date it wouldn't be comfortable.
Last time we dated, I had to do everything. I mean, I don't mind doing some stuff, but it's tiring to plan all the dates and find time to hang out everyday. For once I just want to treasured and just be able to have options given to me. I feel mean saying this, but I think I deserve it. I really think I deserve a guy who wants to make me feel special and better than all the other girls. Is that too much to ask for?
I really miss talking to Clara Green, she was the therapist I saw while I was in middle school. I feel like she would encourage me to go for Tyler, but she would have good reasons and loads of advice. Jenny Green, her daughter and my friend, said that I could ask her for advice, but it just isn't the same as Clara.
So, I know I haven't touched all of the important subjects, but it is late and I have school tomorrow.
Peace!
