I know it may seem whoreish that im jumping from guy to guy but I don't mean to; I thought that Trevor loved me but I was obviously wrong, you see i have been in love with steven since we met but I didn't realise it until now. Steven is an amazing guy. I just don't want to let him down.
So anyways, onto the story.
As soon as Steven and I got together I saw Trevor walk into Taco Bell. "Acacia there you are" "Go away Trevor. You're an asshole and I never want to see you ever again!" "Acacia babe please just listen to me. I didn't mean to tell Lindsay. It just... slipped out. Lindsay and I are like best friends and I tell her everything. And when I told her she promised me that she wouldn't tell anyone." "Well she told the whole school and now my reputation is ruined. Thanks a lot Trevor."
"Acacia please give me another chance. I won't do it again" "Trevor because of you, I am now the school slut! This is all your fault!" Trevor looked so hurt and vulnerable. I knew he was being honest but i just couldn't go crawling back. And besides, I'm with Steven now. Trevor is just bad news. He'll only break my heart.
"Fine," he said "I'll leave you alone forever. I won't talk to you at school, outside of school or even through YouTube." Trevor stormed out slamming the Taco Bell entrance door behind him.
I felt bad, I know I broke his heart but I needed to tell him the truth. It was his fault that I'm now known as the school slut. Its his fault that everyone hates me. Its his fault that im miserable. Everything is his fault. I mean why would he think it was okay to tell Lindsay the bitch? Why would he tell her ANYTHING about me? He knows that we hate each other. He knows that Lindsay would do anything to hurt me.
What if they had sex too? What if she told him she'd have sex with him if he sold me out. What if she's the reason why i'm miserable.
No. It can't be. I know that Lindsay hates me, but i don't think she would make me this miserable. I can't wait to move. I can finally get away from Lindsay and her bitchy crew. I can get away from that lying douche Trevor. I can get away from everything.
I'd finally be happy.
***
The next day was worse.
When I walked into school everyone was giving me death stares. People started at me out of disgust. Everyone was cringing their nose and I just felt like absolute scum.
"Hey Jackie" I said greeting her with a friendly smile. "Oh uhm hey Acacia... Look I can't be seen talking to you" "What? Why" "Because! You're the school slut now. No one likes you. I'm sorry Acacia but I want to be liked, I'm hanging out with Lindsay for now on. So is everyone else." Jackie runs off without looking back and not allowing me to get in a word.
I sigh and go to my locker. I stop and stare at it. Someone actually spray painted the word "SLUT" onto my locker. What is this? Kindergarten? I sigh once again and get my books out. When I close my locker I see Lindsay right next to me.
"Hey slut" "What do you want Lindsay" "I wanted to apologise. I had no right telling everyone about you and Trev. I feel like I'm the reason why you guys broke up."
I can't believe it. LINDSAY, the school bitch, is apologising to ME. ME!
"Well you are. But I should thank you in a way" "Why would you thank me?" she asked confusingly "Because! Thanks to you, I got a new boyfriend" "Oh. Well uhm I just want a fresh start so if you want to be friends then you can come and hang with us at lunch and break and uhm sit with me during class" "Noted" I said with a smile
I walk off and go to homeroom, even the teachers are giving me death stares. Lovely.
As I walk into homeroom I go straight to my teacher, she had said she wanted to talk to me before I had to go to class. "Hello Ms. Perkins" "Ah Acacia. Listen, I heard about you and Trevor and I just wanted you to know that I do not have sluts in my classroom. So I need you to leave."
I drop my jaw in awe. "Are you fucking kidding me?" "Of course I'm not. Get out of my classroom right now." "You're not allowed to do this!" "I don't care. Get. Out."
I run off and go to the girls bathroom and lock myself into a toilet and start crying fiercely.
Not only did I lose my best friend, but I also lost my fight. I couldn't stay stronger any longer.
Tonight is the night.
This Is The Day I Die
