#SorryNotSorry

Prolouge - Started from the Basement

[Song selection: Sorry, Not Sorry - Bryson Tiller]

Kailar's thoughts on her 24th birthday.

So much had gone on in my life. I've been abused in just about every way possible. Both parents alive, but neither were there. I spent most of my days with my grandmother or my older sister. Now here I am 24 and a single mother. I always wanted to be better than this. I knew I was better than this. I just had no backup. No support. At least I wasn't like the rest of the girls from the hood on their fourth baby daddy and shit.

Let's talk about my abuse. I was a good kid most of the time, so I rarely got whippings. I can count on one hand how many I've ever gotten, so let's rule out that my mama was a child beater.

What she didn't do with her hands, she definitely did with her words. Calling me out my name damn near daily. I'm all these fat bitches and black hoes meanwhile, she was fuckin around with a crack head child molester. I really should've considered living with my daddy. My life would've been very much improved. I just ain't like his wife.

My sister ... We have a love/hate kinda relationship. I love her til the end of time, but some if the shit she does gets under my skin. We've had fall outs. We've had crying sessions. We even had a couple of fist fights.

My son's father. I loved him at one point. We were together for 3 years before we even had sex. Then BOOM a bitch gets pregnant and that's when he decides to cheat. Yeah. He a bitch ass dude.

What my story is about is how I am the way I am today. All I have to live for now is my baby boy. Five year old Kamden is all I have and nobody can take that shit from me. I'd rather be dead. Everybody else can kiss my big, fat, round, black ass. This fat bitch has something to prove and everything to live for.

#SorryNotSorry Bitch.

Five year old Kamden in MM.