I wake up and my head is fuzzy again. I can't believe i'm stoned again. I don't think I've been sober since the end of high school. I look to my left and my friend Liv is still passed out next to me. I sneak out and make myself some tofu scramble because i'm fucking starved from last night.
I can't believe what happened last night. It was a crazy gig. We were playing our first Warped Tour and after our act I got a little excited and drank a massive amount of booze. We didn't have many fans but the fans we do have are hardcore motherfuckers. Our first album was a little poppy and folk. This last one had made us gain some popularity. It was some sad ballads about my famous break up with the one and only Harry Styles.
He was my everything. I was his biggest fan and I was lucky enough to get to date him. He was perfect and simply the sweetest. I don't think I could ever find a better man than him. He broke up with me very suddenly after an award show. I don't know why he dated me in the first place but he didn't need to break up with me for no reason at all. I met him when the fame already went to his head but I thought he was more grounded when he was with me. Sometimes he was a diva but I could deal with it.
Harry is still one of my best friends. He is there when I need him and that is such a good thing. We just vibe with each other. Olivia is my closest and best friend. We have been through everything together from our first blunt, drink, and everything in between. Her and I started a band our freshman year of college. We were high and thought it was a good idea. We sound pretty decent. We get paid enough to support ourselves.
My phone suddenly rings. "Hey, Harry." I say sleepily. "How was the first night of tour?" he says cockily. "I got a little fucked up. Other than that it was pretty sick. Saw some rad bands" I say a little to excitedly. "Sounds lovely. Who did you see?" he asks. "Well I did see Never Shout Never which you know is my favorite band of all time." I scream into my phone. "Hey babe, I want to take you again before I leave for my photo shoot." I hear some bimbo say in the background. "WHO THE FUCK WAS THAT!" I scream this time with rage. "It's Kendall. I swear it's nothing." Harry lies to me. "BULLSHIT! Bye, ASSHOLE!" I hung up the phone.
I hear footsteps coming from across the bus. "Fam, are you alright?" Liv asks me. "Harry had Kendall over!" I start to cry. "yo. you and him just broke up. That's a dick move." Olivia tries to comfort me. "I knew he was cheating on me. I felt it." I cry into her shoulder. "Fam, let's just get high and practice for today since we are on in a couple hours." Olivia suggests.
The smoke makes it hard to see but it feels so good just to let go and not worry about what Harry is doing. I'm just gonna have a sick show and see some dope bands. I don't need anything but my music, my friends, and my weed.
