Trouble in the 4-oh-2

What are we going to do

I woke up blurry eyed and terrified not knowing where I was. The last thing I remember was my stomach pains and blacking out. I quickly grabbed my stomach but it didn't feel the same. I didn't feel the warmth of my child within, there was no butterfly's kisses or light feelings. I felt... Empty....
"MYY BABY" I yelled at the top of my lungs.
"WHAT HAPPENED TO MY BABY" I was screaming for answers . I still didn't know where I was was until a man walked in my room.
"Miss mallette, he said grabbing my hand, my name is Doctor James Peterson do you know where you are" his voice soothing in an uncomfortable way.
" well if you're a doctor I must be in a hospital" I answered.
"That is correct do you remember what happened to you at all? He asked letting my hand go grabbing a clip board from the wall.
"I just remember the pain and yelling my baby" as I spoke he wrote.
"Okay miss mallette I have good news and bad news which would you like first?" He asked looking me in the eyes.
"did I have a miscarriage?" I asked tears forming in my eyes.
Sympathy immediately hit his face.
"No miss mallette you didn't, but your pregnancy is extremely high Risk you have had numerous Heath hazards and my medical team advises you to terminate this pregnancy. Your body is not handling it well at all if you deliver this baby you pose possible life long injury to not only you but your child, I'm sorry"
I didn't know what to say, I was relieved my baby was okay but to hear that having them could cause harm to us both changes everything.
"You don't have to decide now but you're getting further along each day and the window is getting smaller, if you choose to continue your pregnancy you will be at high Risk" before he could finish his sentence Dillon came in the door. The last time we talked was no good but I couldn't have been happier to see anyone else . He came over and hugged me, and when he did I felt the butterflies in my belly and I could feel my baby again . This made me cry harder I created a life and giving it up isn't what I want to do but I don't want to bring a child in this world knowing the odds are against them. This wasn't only my child though. "Doctor Peterson this is my child's father Dillon rupp, and Dillon this is doctor Peterson and he has something important to explain to you" I watched as the doctor told Dillon what he told me, I watched his heart break knowing everyone thought it was best to terminate.
"Miss mallette until you make a decision you are on strict bed rest, if you need Anything let us know, and ultrasound tech will be here shortly to monitor the baby as of now and update you"and he walked out the door. I turned and looked at a speechless Dillon and asked the million dollar question.
"What are we going to do?"
Before he could answer a short blonde Hispanic lady walked in.
"Hello miss mallette my name is melody and I will be taking your ultrasound today" she lifted up my shirt and pored a cold blue liquid on to my stomach then she attached the monitor. You could immediately hear a hollow noise.
"That noise you hear is your baby's heartbeat, now I'm aware of your high Risk and can tell you the hallow noise can mean multiple good things but also a few bad things, but one thing is for sure their heartbeat is where it should be and its beating over all seems heathy so I'm going to be sure to tell the doctor that." I was happy to hear she didn't think much of the noise but she wasn't 100% sure I looked over at Dillon who was making a video of the heartbeat he looked happy.
"Now the fun part" melody said pulling a separate machine out putting it back on my belly. She turned on a screen and you could see my baby. Melody showed us the toes and little head. Tears filled my eyes I finally got to see what made me feel my butterflies. I looked over at Dillon tears in his eyes too and at that moment I know there was no way we could get ride of something so precious to us no matter the risk this was our child.
"Now your coming up close on 4 months soon but I can tell you what I'm 70% sure your gender is would you like to know?"Melody turned to us and asked.
"Yeah" me and Dillon said in unison.
"Looks like you have a little baby girl floating around in there congrats you two."
A baby girl we were having a girl nothing could have made me happier right now our day had just gone from horrible to bright and maybe there was hope.
"I'll print the pictures and run them up in a few minutes" melody said walking out the door.
"A girl aye, call me daddy rupp from now on" Dillon said laughing.
"Okay daddy rupp what are we going to do Now" I asked him seriously
"What do you mean we're about to have us a baby" he said smiling.
Maybe things weren't so bad after all but this is 3/9 months I still have an entire 6 months to go.