A Blind World

Chapter 6

Zisteau knocked on the old wooden door. It took a minute, but eventually Baj came to the door.

"Zisteau?"

"Can we talk?"

"Of course, come in."

Zisteau headed in and took a seat, waiting for Baj to sit down as well. He didn't even give Baj a chance to question Zisteau before he began.

"What does father gave against gay people?"

Baj looked surprised. "Umm why do you ask?"

"Because I want to know."

Baj sighs, sitting back in his chair. "I guess you do have a right to know."

Zisteau raised a questioning eyebrow.

"But, you have to promise that you won't interrupt me, ok?"

Zisteau nodded, thoroughly intrigued.

"Your grandfather had hated gays. No one knew why, but he did. Your father had been told to look for a suitable wife to help rule the kingdom for when he took over. But, Guude fell in love with this young, handsome, bakers son. His father found out about the two, and refused to let them see each other, even though they were both in love. His father had failed to see that. So, he arranged a marriage with your mother. At first Aurey and Guude didn't click the best, but soon enough, they starting loving each other. Aurey had vowed that when they had a child, they would be able to marry who they choose. She didn't want you to have the same fate as them, even though it had ended well for them. Guude has since resented his father and has hated gays. They both want the best for you Zisteau, and you know that. It's just how Guude was raised. Aurey is only cautioning you because she knows how Guude can be. You cannot tell Guude about this, ok?"

"I won't."

"Good, now head to bed, its getting late."

Zisteau smiles at that. He heads to his room and flopped down on the bed, his thoughts running wild. His father had liked a boy, a bakers son. Bdubs? Zisteau questioned, it seemed logical enough. Maybe he resented gays because he got the lovely his life taken from him.

Then a thought hit him. Kurt. If his father found out, he wouldn't be allowed to see him. He didn't want that. He couldn't stand the thought of not seeing Kurt again, not being able to hold him close, to kiss him, to be able to just be with him. He didn't want that, he'd do anything to be with Kurt.

"Zisteau." Came a soft voice from the doorway.

Zisteau glanced up, seeing his beautiful mother standing in the doorway, her long red hair pulled back into a long braid and her emerald green eyes sparkling.

"Can we talk?" She asks gently.

"Uh.... sure." Zisteau answers quietly, desperately trying to shove those feelings away, if only for a little.

She walks over, sitting on the bed beside Zisteau, tucking her long skirt under her legs.

"Don't freak out." She starts gently. "But I know you like Kurt."

Zisteau's eyes widen with fear, as the words sunk in. "H-How?"

She laughs quietly. "Just how you talk about him. Your eyes light up and your so happy."

"Oh.... Please.... please don't take him away from me!" Zisteau begs, tears welling up in his eyes.

"Zisteau, my beautiful son." She says, brushing blonde hair out of Zisteau's face and wiping away a tears as it slowly started down his cheek. "I would never do that. Young love is a beautiful, beautiful thing."

"Your-your ok with it?" Zisteau asks in disbelief.

"Of course I am. You know there are people who accept this."

"Yeah.... but there's a lot who don't."

"I know sweetie, and this'll be tuff, but I know you'll get through it."

"But what if father finds out?"

"Then we'll deal with it, but lets just hope he doesn't."

"Your willing to help me be with Kurt?"

"Yes, now this must be our secret."

"I know..... Thank you so much mother." Zisteau says, hugging the other other tightly.

"You know I just want the best for you." She replies, hugging back.

"I know...."

"Tomorrow your father and I are heading into town for the day, why don't you bring Kurt here, have the chief make you lunch and relax. You can even have some of that scotch, if you'd like."

"Wow... really?"

"We shall be gone from noon till almost midnight. We have a very important meeting to attend."

"Awesome! Thank you so much."

"Your welcome, now, write a letter and have Arkas deliver it to Kurt."

"I will."

"Goodnight sweetie."

"Mother, one more question."

"Hmm?"

"Is what Baj said true?"

"As much as I wish it wasn't, it is."

"Oh.... so father really did fall in love with a bakers son?"

"He really did. Those two had seemed inseparable, but Guude's father had had something against it. I personally think that his father was not right in the head, but you didn't hear that from me. Guude is a good guy, Zisteau, he was just raised that way and he doesn't like the idea of you being gay because he couldn't have what he really wanted and he would be jealous of you."

"Was it Bdubs?"

"Yes, it was, but Guude's moved on sweetie."

"But what if he hasn't? What if he still loves Bdubs?"

"Well." She took a deep breath. "Then I'd have to let him go, if that's what he really, really wanted. But he's got bigger responsibilities now. It's not like it was when he was your age. Then he didn't have a kingdom to run and didn't have a child to take care of. Now it's a lot more than just his feelings."

"Right...."

"Don't stress to much over it, that's all in the past. Now I must go, goodnight Zisteau."

"Goodnight."

Zisteau pulled out paper and wrote a note:

Kurt,

My parents will be gone tomorrow, I was hoping you could come to the castle and spend the day with me. I'll even pick you up at your house. I'll come by around one. I can't wait to see you again.

~Zisteau

Zisteau tracked down Arkas and requested that he deliver the letter first thing in the morning. Then he headed to bed, where he quickly fell asleep, not wanting to wait for tomorrow at all.