I begin to pace back and forth in our small apartment. Why was Dan affected? This doesn't make sense to me. I check my phone, over and over. I still don't have a single word from him. It's been two hours since he left, and it's already dark. My mind begins to wander to his whereabouts.
Did he end up going to a bar somewhere? Did he go back to Pj and Chris' house? Stop it, Phil. Dan is an adult, and he can do whatever he wants to do. He doesn't have to tell me what he's doing. Although, it would be nice to know so I don't have to worry.
Why didn't he respond when I asked if I will see him later? I will probably see him later anyway, he would have to grab his stuff from here anyway. But he would have to tell me if he has decided to move out, right? What the hell is wrong with me? Why does my mind keep obsessing over him and his actions?
I get on Twitter, and I start to look at questions, because I'm going to make a video for tomorrow, and I need ideas. But that's really an excuse. I want to check in and see if Dan has posted anything, and also I can get work done at the same time.
Dan hasn't been active, so that's good, I guess? I don't know. I honestly don't know how I feel, I think I'm losing my mind. Dan being gone is driving me crazy, I don't know how I am going to sleep at night. I'm sort of pissed that he didn't talk to me or tell me what was going on. I'm his best friend, and I'm going crazy because he hasn't told me anything. That visit with Pj and Chris was fucking weird. He knows that he can talk to me about anything. I mean, we've lived together for three years now.
I'm worried about his mental health though, because lately he's been having more anxiety attacks than is usual. He is just being a little distant with me usually. He hasn't posted a video in a while, and all of both his and my followers are asking when our next video will be together. The more time that has passed, I miss him even more.
I miss his smile. I miss when he looks over at me, when I say something stupid, and he just chuckles to himself. His smile is quite attractive. I can't help but observe his smile as I watch our gaming channel videos.
I look down at my phone, and it's three in the morning. Dan has been gone for six hours. I'm irritated as hell that he still hasn't said a single thing to me. I know he has his phone on him, he was on it when we were getting coffee.
I sit on the floor in the hallway and wait for him to return to the apartment. I'm sure he will come home.
