Chained to memories

Noticing

A.N.-
Hey guys! I'm soooo sorry about the delay! School has so much homework and my whole family had gotten sick and bleh! I'll try to start the next chapter as soon as possible and I'm taking questions you have or requests.
But, he's the next chapter! Enjoy!

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Each breath felt like a breath to remember, to forget, to kill. But I've seen and been through the some weird stuff but boy, does this really take the cake.
I don't even know anymore. It's like, one second I'm fine and the next I'm stabbing myself with questions. The only thing that hasn't changed is the fact that she's always there, haunting my dreams and life.
Why won't she go away?
I may never know.
But I don't really care that much anymore. She's just there, and she can't touch of hurt me, physically. But, she does pack a good kick for mentally. Thought I don't know who she is, I always have this weird feeling that she's been someone I know. And it's funny, because she looked exactly like someone I met today!
April.
She had the shape of the head, the pale skin, the tough fists. Everything seemed to fit the description. Of course I didn't -did- act strangely around her, I still kept my distance.
I haven't told my brothers about what I've been through because they already have enough on their shoulders as it is. And they also had to add another thing to their list today. Aprils father.
Yup. Her father was taken away by robot aliens with brains in their chests. Of course, being the kid I am no one believed me and I ended up being slapped in the face by Leo but that's NOT the problem here!
The problem is I'm bored and I'm afraid I might run into her again she's been roaming around the lair for a while and I wanna ask her to leave- yell at her to leave-  but Donnie seems to have something starting between the two of them so I'm not gonna mess that up......As much as I'd like to.
Leo's meditating and Raphs just there but I don't wanna get beat up again so I'll leave him alone. Ugh! Fine. Leo said I should talk to April and be nice to her because she accepted us for who we were and not what we look like.
But no. I'm not gonna do that. I don't wanna. She scares the living day out of me as it is.
Hopefully she'll leave just as quickly as she came... Which was pretty quick. I hope she can just read my eyes and then leave as finds out, I don't like her! I probably will soon, I don't know. It all depends on how her personality is and if she's nice and some stuffs.
Hopefully we can get her dad back so she could just leave us as we were a day ago. But judging from the way the beginning had started off as... She's not leaving anytime soon.
I really don't like the way she looks. Sure, she's skinny and all, but the way she looks at me just makes me wanna run away and never look back. Kinda the way Splinter makes Leo feel.... I'm not gonna list much about that anyways but uh, yeah.... For get I said anything alright?
So, here I am. Walking towards April with a forced and twitching smile. I keep telling myself that it's fine, it's safe, she's not gonna like, hurt me! Hahaha, right?!
Walking out of my rooms feels like me getting punched in the face, partly by the cold air that came into my warm room, but you get what I mean, right?
I walk downstairs and into the common room and much to my surprise... She's there. On the couch. Looking at me and smiling. Great.
"Hey April." I say with the most happiness I can drain out of me. She waves at me as I just stand there.
"Hi Mikey."
Phew, at least she didn't ask me how my day was or anything.
"How was your day?"
I completely called it.
"Uh," I look around the common room, anywhere but her eyes, "fine, I guess. And yours?" I ask, my voice getting higher at the last word. I inwardly sigh. This sucks! Its like she's WAITING for me to run out the lair.
"Oh, it's good. Thanks for asking. So, I need your advise,"
Oh god. Someone kill me.
"My school is going to a fundraiser and I don't know if i should wear a yellow dress with white flowers or a pink dress with purple stripes. Which one should i wear? And the shoes have to be cute too." She mumbled and looked at me with her blue eyes.
I should really just say 'look, I could care less about what you have on you okay? Just leave and never come back.' But then again, she did kinda accept us and not sell us to scientists for money. SOOOO! I should be nice to her. But k don't wanna.
Ugh.
"Uh, I don't know. Wear whatever you want to." I say and give her a thumbs up with a smile that's twitching even more.
"But I wanna look nice. The school has done a lot for me and-"
"Look, it really doesn't care what you look like okay? Just be yourself." I mumble and one side of my mouth or 'smile' goes down and my eye starts to visibly twitch.
Her eyes widen. I could tell she's shocked but I don't care! I just wanna leave.
"Oh, okay. Well thanks. I'll wear-"
"Hey, there you are. Can I talk you for a second?" A voice says behind me and a hand grabs my right shoulder.
"Uh, yeah I gue-"
"Okay cool. Sorry April!" It calls out to her as it forcefully jerks my shoulder to make me turn around and leads me to my room.
I get pushed in and I hear the door close and lock. I turn around to meet an angry Raphael.
"And exactly, what was that?" He asks. I don't really know what he's talking about so I just shrug.
"I don't know what you're talking about." This only earns a sigh and a roll of eyes.
"The way you were talking to her. You don't like her do you? After she accepted us and crap you still dot like her?!" He looked at me in disbelief. "What the heck!?"
"Raph, it's not that it's just she..."
"She what?"
"....she reminds me of someone who hurt me."