It's freshman year, and i was extremely nervous. However, I managed to make it a full semester with only one day absent (for a surgical procedure). That procedure was just a endoscopy into my stomach, nothing serious. It's ironic, actually, because my Anxiety problems are starting up again. I've missed 7 days exactly, in only 14 days into the 2nd semester. It's horrible. I've tried everything that I did last year that kept me going the rest of 8th grade, but this seems a lot worse, more vigorous, more unstable. The major difference is that i'm not seeing my therapist anymore (since July) and i'm on different medicines since last year. I've actually been through a large set amount of pills I cannot remember what I was taking at the time. I've had some pretty un-rational thoughts because this anxiety solution seems so unlikely to happen. I've thought about dropping out of school, and just doing online classes. I love school, but I can't go in the condition i'm in. I have no idea how i'm going to make it 3 more years if i can't even manage 2 weeks. Seems so ridiculous. i'm hoping something turns hope, soon, because this is definitely something I refuse to live with.
I guess it's true what they say.
Problems don't actually leave, they stay forever until they disappear.
I'm sorry if that seemed a little too ranting like, but that's what has been going on recently, it sucks, and i know nobody (around me) will ever understand.
Have a good day guys,
Grayson.
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